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This is Lore73.

10/01/2006 10:58 the year can be written /06 or /2006. But the time consist of 105(6) and 8(2+6) with the difference that the second mention is in the time without 2 zero’s, and the first time mentioned received 1 zero – if you compare the first time with the first year (how it can be written), and the second year with the second time. And then the date that is left is an inverse 10/01.

And this is Lor73 and 7 + 3 = 10 – the day is also 10th today

Dear Lor

I am wondering today if all these inverse things that I come across and the (+) and (-) thing is not only just linked to a polar shift of the planet?

LOVE
Renee
10/01/2006 11:20 or 02:20 as 1 + 1 = 2.

10/01/2006 11:37 and this is Lor73

Dear Lor

What I wrote up above only came up as I wanted to write to you something I made a note of in the golden journal last night. And what came up above was so shocking that I had to close up everything and just try to settle with it a bit.

But I guess you all know this already.

About last night. If I lie on my bed at night time, especially this time of the year, the Southern Cross is right in my window frame. And I looked at it again last night and thought to myself, I wonder why the cross fell over – as it is definitely not standing up right. It is lying on its side – as if it fell to the left side. And I was wondering about the thing scientist call the heavenly South Pole. But to get to that place (heavenly South Pole) you have to draw an imaginative line through the cross, which fell over, and an imaginative line right through the middle of Alpha and Beta Centauri, and where these two imaginative lines meet. That is the heavenly South Pole. This sounds very imaginative to me, this place that gets called heavenly South Pole. If I take that I go there, I leave the planet and I try to go there – with all the imagination I imagine I get there, but what do I find? Do I have to imagine that too – as it seems I will find nothing but nothing and what do I imagine nothing to look like? Can one imagine nothing to look like something? But then it will not be nothing anymore!

But this was sort of the line my thoughts took last night – but it seems for a different reason – maybe to focus my attention today on the word South Pole and then I put together that the planetary poles is linked to magnetism and my first sum, the one I did on 25/26 of 10 in 2003, is very much linked to the laws of magnetism and why it isn’t applied to mathematics when it comes to the (+) times (-) thing. And even the two towers for me was linked (as in my first letters) to this (+) times (+) or (-) times (-) thing with the sum in October 2003.

I just lastly want to say before I end this letter, my body is not that well. And I read at the doctor’s consulting rooms in a book that the Dalai Lama’s body’s health are feared for each time the Dalai Lama channels that Dragon (and if the Dragon is some symbolism I do not know). I don’t know if my body is taking strain perhaps because I tune into places I am not even aware of exist when I start thinking and logic with my head? Oh, and that part about the concern about the Dalai Lama’s health, it was on page 16 – and aren’t you the inverse, namely 61?

LOVE
Renee
10/01/2006 11:58 and the sms I just send to you guys now, in the sms the minute it ends is 16. But the minutes of the Delivery Report is 31 – and all linked to 11 and today’s date, the 10/01. But if you view the end minute of this letter and the end of the end (the delivery report), you get (5 + or 13 and 31 or 13:31.

This is Lore72.

07/01/2006 09:39

Dear Lore

There is no remark on the time and date at the top. Though today is the 07/01 or (0)7(0)1, which gives the 71 combination again. But it seems like the top of this letter, I am confused about something being remarked or not remarked. But if you look at the date and time, it is 71 (07/01) and 8 (2 + 6) + 9 = 17 and the time remaining is 3 + 9 = 12. And just this morning I filed a slip my father got at the Spar where the time of the sale was 17:21:17. But in this letter’s date and time we are left with a 71, 12, 17. And my father went to buy a toothbrush, but he was so impressed that the toothbrush was so cheap that he bought two. I am just wondering what has toothbrushes got to do with this letter as one wash ones mouth in a way with toothbrush. Do we all use a toothbrush to clean our mouths because of all the things we say? And it seems my father bought an extra toothbrush for all the things I have to say in this letter today.

I look at my experience in the house I am sharing with my parents. On the one side I have my mother speaking her mind about everything – even if she is unhappy with something. Then I have my father who does not speak his mind and he is staying aloof. But I do not know which one is doing more harm? I remember in the Celestine Prophecy it is said that being aloof is not really a good thing – but if I take how I feel when my mother is speaking her mind…
I am wondering that if one speak one’s mind, aren’t you then reinforcing a certain thought? But on the other hand, by suppressing it to the subconscious and not let it out at all, isn’t that also a “bad” thing? And is it “bad” at all, or does it only have that appearance?

Like my friend Karina who is seeing a psychologist – now isn’t she just reinforcing a certain belief of her situation by speaking her mind and feelings/thoughts? And it seems that her and the psychologist is not getting anywhere else than dealing with that spoken reality.

What happens when a “negative” thing gets spoken and what happens when it does not get spoken? If I take myself, I take everything that is said to me so personal – even things not directly said to me, but only mentioned out loud and I happen to hear it.

If I take the situation where my mother speaks her mind – my first reaction is a reply of anger, then I feel a victim, and then I rationalize and find an excuse for my mothers words and that let the feeling of guilt settle in. Celestine Prophecy let itself out as that the aloof thing and not being aloof thing is a plain and simple matter – I don’t think so. I try and talk back to my mother, but that seems to worsen things and I end up with feeling guilty. In the book everything seems so easy, but I really think that sometimes, being aloof, is a lot better thing than speaking your mind. By speaking your mind, you might end up saying something that affects another person so badly that that person starts building a reality for him/herself about your words, about your speaking of your mind.

The rabbi said one has to emanate the divine spark in everything – in this instance, what has happened this morning, the divine spark about this mornings situation resolves itself to be a question. Do one stay aloof and feel victim, or do you say things out and harm with your speaking out loud of your feelings and thoughts.

I am wondering with all the things we say to hurt one another, must we say we are sorry and then just reinforce our guilt faculty? As if we must realize how many we may have hurt/harm already with words we spoke, it give rise to another thing – the feeling of guilt!! Maybe we must just brush our teeth.

My question is just, for the words we can still brush our teeth, but what do I do with my thoughts to get them clean?

Renee
07/01/2006 09:59

08/01/2006 10:42 and the day and year add up to eight, but a certain part of the date, the middle part, is a 1, and the time all adds up to 7, which leaves us with a 1 and 7.

Dear Lor

Lor, I made such a mistake and paid/are paying a dear price for that. This is Lor7(2) and in Lor7(1), the 27th last sentence in the letter (that is now if I take my printout version) I said something that is apparently unacceptable. Since after I emailed that letter to you, first I knew there was some mistake with the cover letter and that I had to go back to the email café and sent the second one. But for some or other reason I have been kept from doing that.

Then, the other day, I suddenly ran out of colour ink in the printer and I could not really belief as the previous time I checked it was still fine. And on my way to the shop to get another ink cartridge, I listened to a CD. One my head wanted me to listen to. And as I was driving and listening to this music, you were playing the drums. And after I came home, all that lasted in my head from that music is a song where the words go like this: Tussen jou en my, le daar ‘n berg, le daar ‘n berg, Tafelberg.

I could not make out what my head wanted to tell me about this. But yesterday, on the 07/01 everything just came down on me. I was lying in the loo of Grand West tuning in to some pain level that is unbearable. And my mother was angry with me and I just felt lost and lonely on this earth. And as we came home, it wasn’t quite better as my dog was not feeling well and I felt that. I tried to give him his pills but he did not want to take it, not even with steak. In fact, he got nearly histerical as I tried to give him his pills. But it seems the inverse were histerical nearly. So I landed up in my bathroom again and…

So this morning I wake up and I tried to give my dog his pills again, but he still doesn’t want to take it. Then I thought of what my head showed me yesterday, with that song, that between me and my head there is a mountain, Table Mountain. And if you look at Table Mountain, on each side there is some smaller mountain, the one called Devil’s Peak and the other called Leeukop. And my head took me to read that letter Lor7(1), that 27th last line, again. (And next to Leeukop is Signal Hill – and does signal or sign need anymore explanation?)

What it came down to, but my words were not expressing this clearly, was that I was wondering about the fact that in the Bible, I know there is a place where God revealed God self in the way of fire. But what is really strange about that is that the Christians have some belief that the hell is associated with fire as well – “they will tell you if you sin you are going to burn in hell”.

But now back to the song about Table Mountain. I had two different experiences with the two side mountains of Table Mountain – Devil’s Peak and Leeukop. I once was early at the rabbi’s place and it was still light. Then I saw the little Catholic church across the road, but if you look at the cross on the top of the roof, it is etched to which I thought was Devil’s Peak.
Then I went to a friend of mine and she told us this incredible story. (And she stays, like I believed, close to Leeukop). What she told us was that a few years ago she went to some Island that is very into Christianity. And there she saw all these beautiful, full rainbows, during her stay there. But at the moment she and her husband has got marital problems and one night, as she met another man on the internet, who is apparently from that Island she went to a few years ago, this guy was suppose to come and visit her. And as he arrived, she saw that there was a full rainbow which could be viewed from her house – in the direction of what I believed to be Leeukop. But in the first instance has she never before noticed a rainbow, a full one, in Cape Town before, but that night there were not only one, but two – when this guy from this Island was visiting her. And the day she told me this story, was on the 08/12/2005 (also the 8th of a certain month) and on my way to her, there were a traffic jam and there were a chair standing on the highway and it was facing me with its back and on the back was written: rainbow (in white).

But then me and my parents one day, after both these events took place, were driving into town and my father showed me that I was confusing the two side mountains of Table Mountain. The one I believed to be Leeukop was Devil’s Peak and the other way around.

So the cross was etched against Leeukop and the two full rainbows are associated with Devil’s Peak. And as my friend was telling me about the rainbow miracle she experienced, I was thinking about the symbolism of a rainbow and can only get to it that God promised Noah that the rainbow is the proof that the earth will never again get flooded by water, so it is some kind of “sign” from God – a “sign” of something that God promised. But with my friends experience, there were 2 rainbows – or is this now 2 “promising signs” of God?

But it seems these incidents are linked to that song where it is sang that between the singer and someone else, there lies a mountain and this mountain is Table Mountain. What all this comes down to I do not know. I just know I went through a lot of “fire” to write this letter and to change the words I just did not put clear enough in Lor7(1). And I also know that, like I said in Lor7(1), that all this mountain thing and fire part is also linked to the word “misleading”. And I am too scared to let myself out on anything further as I don’t want to make another mistake – if it was a “mistake” at all as why is it the 27th last row in Lor7(1) and why is this letter Lor7(2)? Was it all meant? And this is the second letter of Lor7(2). What is the two’s thing all about? My parents also told me that in the early 1970’s (and 1 + 9 = 1, which gives a 17 and (0)), after I was born, two defence aeroplanes crashed into Devils’s Peak – where the two rainbows is now linked to with the miracle my friend experienced. And she experienced these two rainbows in December 2005.

LOVE
Renee
08/01/2006 11:41 and the 11 I associate now with a machine at Grand West that has golden hearts and by now you know the link between 14 and dog and 41 the inverse of dog.

08/01/2006 12:40 or (1)(2) and 22 (the 4) and 0

Dear Lor

This is now the third letter of Lor72 and 7 + 2 = 9, the last number in numerology, but also the only one which if anything gets added to it, it gives anything.

I was during the last couple of days also reminded of a “fantasy” (don’t know what else to call it) I had while I was at University. This “fantasy” I usually had when I was sitting in the loo in my grandparents house in 148 Zambesi drive. Over and over I dreamed of how me and some women landed on a space vehicle. And in the end I get called in as with my head, I was the only one who could decipher how to steer this space vehicle.

Then there were also the part in this “fantasy” where I would go into some place that was especially built for this purpose, where I had to face spiders (I had to get into a hole coffin of them and let them crawl over me) and all kinds of “tests” which I had to succeeded in surviving them all for some or other reason which I cannot remember now.

I was wondering and my head showed me also, that things, like with my body I also perceive as some vehicle, like stars and planets can also be perceived as space vehicles.

Just thought I’d share this with you as well as my head was showing this to me as well and seemed my head wanted it written down as well – I’d rather do it than land in loo’s again having to face that pain.

Anyway…

LOVE
Renee
08/01/2006 12:53 and 5 + 3 = 8 and 8 is the second number, besides the (0) of the starting day 08.

(See further…)

08/01/2006 13:54 or (1+3=4) and (5+4=9) and this is the 4th letter in Lor72(9).

Dear Lor

I want to give you two quotes from my golden journal. You said to me the first day I saw you to get me a golden journal or wrap the journal in gold. But it was only late last year that I was able to get a pure golden journal, which not even need to be wrapped – all the others had something to do with animals. This is the first one gold but with even golden woven into musical instruments.

1.
“06/01/06 21:24 and 2 + 4 = 6
I was just shown:
I cannot wrap my mind around the
concept of eternity – as the mere
implication of eternity is not
wrappable.
06/01/2006 21:26”

2.
“06/01/06 22:23
Nothing is just plainly simply
Nothing. When you take “space”
or a part of it in your hand –
you see nothing.
But Al(l) is One – that “All”
include nothing. And All,
that includes nothing, is One.
Question, is Nothing part of One
or is One part of Nothing?
Or are they One and the
same (where same literally
relates to previous sentences
where All (even nothing) is One?)
Then “same” is substitute for
no thing
22:29 or 22:11

In the second reference to my journal, there are 6 nothings and 1 no thing, or 6 and 1.
But I am wondering if nothing is part of One (All is One) and we take this mathematically, then 0 is part of 1 as from the above nothing is not something separate from One. Then the question comes up for me with this distinction between the number 0 and 1?
If we look at mathematics and the number systems they work with, between 0 and 1 there are an infinite amount of numbers as you get 1/10 or 1/1000 or 1/1 000 000 000 and so you go on where you never reach 1 form 0 as there are this infinite amount of numbers between 0 and 1.
But according to the second reference, All is One. Can that mean that all numbers are One as well? As the same happen between the number 1and 2 and the number 2 and 3. Between all these numbers there are endless to the infinite, amount of numbers. And we have just seen that 0 and One cannot be separately seen.

Though, if we look at technology, it seems that the paradox (that you cannot get from 0 to 1 because of the infinite amount of numbers between them) has got no effect as we have TV and Satellite and cell phones and all these technological breakthrough’s and not only on one subject, but in all.

But as the first one says, I just seem not able to wrap my mind around these infinite type of concepts. But look at the following:

Nothing is as it seems…
Nothing is as it seems, namely nothing.

(And “i” is the 9th letter and “s” is the 19th letter or 919 and seeing that anything added to 9 equal that anything, this leaves us with One in the middle – again the One in the middle like in one of the previous letter’s beginnings)

LOVE
Renee
08/01/2006 14:22 or 222 – what is this 2 thing?

08/01/2006 3:02pm and the previous letter ended with 3 2’s, but 3 +2 = 5 also and this is the 5th letter of Lor72

Dear Lor

I wrote something here that I now need a toothbrush for – that’s why I deleted it and all that is left of it is the beginning and end time of the letter and this sentence.

LOVE
Renee
08/01/2006 3:17 and it seems this letter ends with the 17 which is linked for me to that Hebrew name of God.

Lore36 .

 

 

03/07/2005 13:04 or 4:4

 

Dear Lor

 

The email I send you yesterday, was a mess.  It seems as that a lot of events are being shown to me at the moment, and I am trying to connect the information, but I think I am lacking the bigger picture as it hasn’t really unfolded yet.  And why last nights letter and even the attached letter was such a disaster, I do not know – but I do believe that in the bigger picture it is going to have a role to play.

 

What do I have at the moment?

 

I have 2 events where horses connected in some or other way with squatter camps, figure. The first one on the 17/10/2003, or an 1+7(8) and 1+2+3(8).  The second one was on 29/06/2005 and at this event the horse was dead.  But the first one was heavy as I suffered pain for the sake of the horses and the squatters, to such extent that I got to a stage of vomiting of all the crying.  And I do not understand how it was possible to have been on the road I was as I knew the area and roads where the first incident took place, and if it was not that I had all the toilet paper because of the crying I did, in the car, I would have believed that it was all my imagination.  As afterwards, I did not understand what went on, especially the road thing and wondered where I really was.  And most of all, I thought I was on my way to Gods window, and yesterday 02/07/2005, a picture of myself as a youngster at Gods window in Mpumalanga, with the word “yours” on the side chest, came up.

 

Then, at the night of 19^th and morning of 20^th of 06/2005, I had the dream of the rhino herd and the elephant herd.  And as you know, the 19^th was the 3^rd anniversary of my shooting.  Then last night, as I went to buy lotto tickets, I just for some reason could not get my money in my purse and left it to do it at home.  So as I arrived home and tried to arrange the money, I saw that the R10 note has a rhino and the R20 note has an elephant picture on it.  My question is just:  What does that have to do with anything?  Yes, it gives a R10 and R20 or a 1 and 2 or 12 and vice versa.

 

Then in this week, on Tuesday, 28/06/2005, I suffered because my dog was suffering and my dog are linked for me with the number 14 (I’ve explained in previous letters why)  Then, on 02/07/2005 there are 10 concerts on 4 continents with the Live8 shows for the poverty in Africa.  And the 10 and 4 added gives 14.  But the question is also:  Isn’t poverty in Africa more linked to the squatters?

 

I think the main question must be:  Is there a link at all?

 

But the question also still stands, why the mess of a letter last night – or 3 letters that do not carry my approval totally, on the attachment, and 1 that is also not up to what I want as an accompanying letter on the email.  And this letter on the email side, was also so messed up that I had to go back to the email café, paste the whole letter and add one sentence to it and mail it to you again.  The first time I went to the email café, and did the first letter, I was sitting at machine no 4, but the second time the machine was no 2.

 

Yes, and yesterday was the July horse race also. And also yesterday, 02/07/2005, there were this labyrinth thing as well and as I returned home, I mistaken the circus tent being folded up, with a labyrinth.  And what are circuses all about?  It is animals in captivity, for one thing.  And there are clowns, but how many people associate the clowns with something that is hiding behind their masks?  

 

Then those 3 letters was the Lore35th letter to you.

 

Then, me and my parents did not understood this morning what was going on as we were working on one another’s nerves and again, all because I had to realize the dog’s stomach was upset again and he had to get medicine.  But this time it was not only me involved in the process of discovering the dog’s illness, but both my parents as well.  So my Guidance is also concerned about my dog, and nothing will slip as it will be prevented that Charlie suffer – and especially because I feel the way about him and other animals, the way I do.

 

Then there were also the “akkertjie” thing I found while doing the labyrinth. The 21, the 31 and the 41, and how I got to those numbers.

 

But maybe I must just relax, as up to now, there cannot really be made anything of all this stuff.  At this point, it is just stuff that happened.

 

Love

Renee

03/07/2005 13:55

 

03/07/2005 14:48 and 4+8=12

 

What was also interesting last night, was that the Lotto Plus Quickpick I bought was on the 02/07/2005 and 19:05:57 and if you view

02/07/2005, you have 2 2’s and a 7 and a 5 left or 22 and 7+5

and the time; 19 or 7 as 19:00 is 7 o’clock, which leaves us with 7:05:57 or 75 57.

 

The 1^st and the 3^rd row, started with 08, and both further had a 1 and 4.  This gives us the rows, 1 and 3.

In the first row:  08 14

In the second row:  it starts with 08 but 41 is the second last number in the row – as in first row the 14 is the second from the front.

 

And this Lotto tickets I bought after my emails to you last night.

So again we have the number 8 and connected to the 1 and 3 combination and the 41 combination.

 

And I had 3 tickets. How it happened I don’t know, but the Lotto Quickpick was the middle one and I won no money on it.

On the first ticket I had only one row and had 3 no on the Lotto Plus correct there.  This time was 7:05:54(9) or 7:5

The 3^rd Lotto ticket’s time was 19:06:01 or 1+9=1 which gives 161 and here in the 7^th row, row G, I had 3 no on the normal Lotto correct.

 

Can you see this beautiful pattern?  As it was the 1^st and 3^rd ticket I won money on or the 1 and 3 again, and incorporated is the Lotto Plus(1^st ) and just Lotto(3^rd ).  And also incorporated is in 1^st , the numbers 7 and 5, and in 3^rd , the numbers 161 (or linked for me to you and Linda – and both of you were incorporated in a strange way in my life yesterday, even though with you I thought I wrote you letters that could have been better as you deserve better letters).  Yes, I do not generally give you such “afgewaterde” letters – it was real odd!!!  So that is maybe the answer as to why the letter thing happened, was to let you figure as it was really odd that the letters to you felt such a mess.  It was to put focus on you – not to give you “afgewaterde” letters, no, it only happened to put my focus on you.

 

Our rabbi say we all have our craziness – well maybe mine is seeing these beautiful patterns, that might mean nothing, in certain things.

It also seems that the numbers 1 and 3 keeps figuring and the Voice promised me that Charlie will be with me till he reached the age of 13.  And as I’ve already written to you about, was what was one of the reasons behind Tuesday, 28/06/2005.

 

Love

Renee

03/07/2005 15:14 or 3:14pm which, like the date, adds up to 17 or 8.

 

 

04/07/2005 12:12

 

Dear Lor

 

I had Charlie at the doctor again yesterday afternoon.  And during the night I tried to apply what the doctor ordered – no food, but this dog was so hungry and because he was so hungry he kept me out of sleep a lot of times last night.  Eventually I thought – he doesn’t normally do this, I am going to give him some of the chicken.  But this animal thing…

 

Like yesterday I had to go and read the Rapport.  And on page 3 they had the story of the horse that was most favourite to win the July, but had to be shot after the race because it broke its leg.  This was most upsetting.  This made it two horses in a period of less than a week who’s deaths I knew of and was most upsetting.  One horse the end of June, the other, the beginning of July.  And as I said to you on the sms, one who was a favourite to win the July race and the other probably the horse of a squatter.

 

But this morning I realized that I am treating my heels every second morning.  So maybe if I keep treating my heels every morning, I can develop something to be protected from animals upsetting me because I love them so much.  If you look at heel, metaphorically speaking you refer to the Achilles heel, but for me, I have realized now, sometimes not only metaphorically.  And my friend Karina focussed my attention on the feet thing by asking me why do they call the part beneath your feet, your sole(soul?).  If I look at my soles, there are the L-shaped scar on the one side(left) and the scar where I stepped into a nail as a child(about 3 or 4 years of age), on the other side(right).

 

But I also had another experience last night.  The Voice wanted me to phone Ronel and as I phoned I thought to myself I’ll talk to her about her new telephone.  So as she answered things went totally different.  I asked her what she was doing and she said, watching a program on TV where a whole rescue team is trying to rescue a dog that landed in a lake or dam or something that has frozen, but he fell into one spot into the water.  Then I tried to tell her something but the phone broke up on her side – and I thought, how odd?  Then I asked her about the phone thing and suddenly she could hear again.  Just as we finished that conversation, I thought I was still talking to her when I realized but we were cut off!  And I looked and saw my battery is down and I know I checked it still the previous day and there were 2 thirds left.  So as I was lying down in bed I thought of this and was shown some of the friends I’ve made, like the Lionlike Being and another woman that was at one stage also with me and appeared when I called on my higher self, they were all holding Charlie in their arms – and I put it together and knew that it was trying to show me that there is a universal rescue going on as well, to save little Charlie.  That put my mind at ease and I felt so much better as I now knew that all the worries is been taken a bit off my shoulders – all the worries about this dog whom I do not want to suffer.  And I made a note of this realization in my lionbook at time:  19:39 and 3 + 9 = 12.

 

Well, this is becoming a long letter again so…

 

Love

Renee

04/07/2005 12:54 and 12 + 9 = 12 or 3 (the page the horse of the July’s article was on)   

Lore35 .

 

 

 

02/07/2005 16:45 and 2+7=9 and 2+5=7 and 1+6=7 and 4+5=9

                             which gives us 97 and 79

 

Dear Lor

 

I went to the laberynth thing today.  The first one we went out to was an 11circuit Medieval laberynth. 

 

I walked and first thing that came up heavily was the photograph my parents have of me about 11 years old and me and my parents being at God’s Window in Eastern Transvaal/Mpumalanga and me having a shirt on with the word “yours” written from top to bottom on the upper right side of the shirt.  What also came up was a formula 1 ferrari.  But as I was walking, my legs tired enormously and when I came to the centre I went and sat down and took off my shoes and socks for my feet to breath.  Then I thought I would walk back with bare feet, but it did not last long as the stones were very cold.  So I put back on my socks and my shoes.  What was though interesting, was that my attention was first put on an “akkertjie”.  I walked on and my attention was focused on another one.  Then my attention was focused on one that was burst open and that gives you two of the same, normal “akkertjies” and one different or

2 of the same, 1 different or 21

Then I saw another “akkertjie”, but this one was dead. Which gives

3 live “akkertjies” and 1 dead or 31

Well, one would tend to think here it would end – but

I saw the little part of the tree that the “akkertjie” part comes in, like only a small part of the “akkertjie” gets covered in, but this little cover part had no “akkertjie” in it as it seems it was missing.  This gives us

4 “akkertjies” existing (doesn’t matter alive of dead) and 1 missing (the part that links the akkertjie to the tree was there, but not the “akkertjie” it is suppose to hold) or 41.

 

After we did this laberynth, we went back to the lady who gave the workshop’s place and at some stage I was sitting and thinking to myself how odd it all was.  Eventually it was finished and I drove home.  Then as I came from Stellenbosch into Bellville, I looked and at first thought I saw a laberynth on the parking area of Checkers.  But as I came closer I saw I was wrong, it was only a circus tent they were taking down.  So the circus was also finished.  And this the Parrot focussed my attention on.

 

Anyway, I enjoyed the day, thank you for sending me the email about it.

 

Love

Renee

02/07/2005 17:08 and 1+7=8 or 8:8

 

 

02/07/2005 17:25

 

Lor

 

I nearly forgot to mention that another interesting thing that happened today was that as I walked into this house of the lady that gave the workshop, the first thing I saw was this huge picture of Linda Tuckers friend, the male White Lion she connected with from start.  (And yesterday I got such a clear picture of the word Hoedspruit, where Marah is and did not understand why!)  A lot of conversation went into the White Lion issue – throughout the whole day.

 

Also, what I am wondering is how much the horse that died on the highway the other night, had to do with the event of the July horserace today?  And what also intrigues me is that a few days before I met up with Len’s friend Jessica, I had the dream about the herd of rhino and elephant – both figuring closely in one dream simultaneously and as I read up on both, what was amazing is that both has the focus of attention on their noses and both are found in Africa and India.  Now, the last few days flooding is characterising India.  And if I look at CNN’s footage, it reminds me a lot of our squatters(just not in flood).  And I felt so sorry for those animals as you could see the cattle standing around in the water in India.

 

Just thought I’d share this with you as well.

 

Love

Renee

02/07/2005 17:34 and 5+7=12

 

 

02/07/2005 17:39 and 3+9=12

 

Yes, me again

 

I just forgot to add this:  Remember I told you about the Harley Davidson motorcycle that pulled in next to me the other day?  The blue and white one with the word “Shadow” written on it?  Well, this lady that gave us the workshop today actually told me today that what some of the healers in Stellenbosch are experiencing with their clients is that the clients were the last week or so very busy dealing with shadowy aspects of themselves.  But she didn’t say if it was better now or what, but both myself and Len are more at peace – especially since Wednesday!  Oh, and did you see that De Doorns was on the TV2 news last night – that is where Len is settling in at the moment.  He is sort of looking having weekend retreats there as he has access to another friend of ours, Karina’s dad who has a huge building good enough for conferences and with guest bungalows.

 

But enough about me…and all my stories

 

Love

Renee

02/07/2005 17:47 and 17 is 5 and 4+7=11 or 2 which gives 5 and 2. And the second letter started with the minutes of the time 25. And 2+7=9 and 9 added to “anything” gives “anything”.

Lore34 .

 

 

29/06/2005 09:39

 

Dear Lor

 

I have a much clearer picture now than last night.  The Voice, which I believe is God now, said to me that He does things with more than one purpose.  Yes, I said to you that the first reason for yesterdays crying was shown as how much He loves me by loving my dog that much to go to such lengths to get him medical attention when he is in suffering.  Then I also realized, by writing to you, that I asked God a long time ago to rather let something happen to me than to my dog – that was done.  Then there were the time last year when I just could not take all the pain in my body, all the confusions the Voice was giving me anymore and wanted to drove into a bridge with my car, but the Voice asked nicely and I didn’t but I was so angry about everything that I said to God twice to hit me with His lightning right there and then as I cannot go on like that.  And I was reminded of this event by the other day as Len and I was having breakfast, I got this heavy feeling on my head and focused and saw your study and your computer.  Len picked up also the heavy energy and he mentioned somehow something about lightning.

 

So last night I realized the issue when I realized that I can tune in – which went along with pain and crying, was the one lightning that hit me, and the showing of  how much the Voice loves me that went along with pain and crying, was the second lightning.

 

Then it was also shown to me, as I was in this time of 7 days – that is how long it took since the first lightning and the second lighting to complete, in a dream on the 27^th , that I got into a lift and pressed the button for level 4.

 

My only problem now is, I do not know what level 4 is, I have an idea that the 2 events was some kind of initiation (what initiations are for, I have no clue).  So what all this was all about I do not know.  I also know that before the first lightning striked, Ronel send me an sms and told me that “they” wanted me to move up.  I was so confused – move up where, and I came to my computer and wrote God a letter and said – but I do not even know where or what “moving up” is, how can I go there.  And the worst part is, how am I going to get there?  Next day, your sms came up that said I had to tune in and the panic that hit and all the stuff I wrote to you about last night.

 

But what is encouraging is the card me and Charlie received:  Hopelik gaan jou versekering meer decking bied!  Word gou gesond.  And little Charlie is sitting in his little hospital jacket on the front of this card.  This is the most precious card I have ever received!!!  Everything was thought of, even telling me and Charlie to get well after all I have been through – and him, as he did not know what to do as I was crawling on the ground crying.  At one point I was crawling in my parents room that he was on their bed and he made a crying noise as well.  And I know that the bond between us is not only because he is Charlie, but because he is “dog” and especially for the reason if you add to the g the o and the d again, what do you get.   And I had experiences with dogs since early age – and there was always bonds.

 

But I have to go, I have a hair appointment and I hope my medicine I ordered yesterday comes today – yes, I went through all this without my medicine(fluanxol) and it seems I am still sane – if you can call the above sane…

 

Do you remember the email I send you where I told you about the clowd hanging over our town and later I send you the sms telling you it did not have a silver lining that night, rather as the sun was setting, the cloud was all fire…I must have felt all this coming then already and the signs was there.

 

Love

Renee

29/06/05 or 11.11 time:10:01

Lore33.

   

18/06/2005 17:15 or 515 (and I remember you asking me if 1+5=6 and I said no, it is the combination of 1 and 5 and that is two air numbers – and if I listened to what you were trying to tell me there…what you said was what I was feeling but like usual I am so stupid that I choose to ignore it the way I did)

 

 

 

The last time I told you about the job thing – how incredible that is and the longer I think about it, the more I realize how (coincidental?) this whole job thing is.  I asked for this spesific job situation, last year.  At that time the traffic department did not have trouble with their ticket situation yet.  But I remember late last year reading up in the newspaper how the municipalities are actually bargaining on the payment of traffic offence tickets and that there is a huge problem as these tickets do not get paid.  Then the next thing happened and suddenly the municipalities realize but their system is not working and abra kedabra, they decide to get in private companies to assist in the serving of summonses!  It is just to good to be true a story that all this happened and I will not claim only for me to have the job I have asked for, but as you said, everything just is.  And I can go into such stories like the above like the one where I had to meet up with my parents at Grand West Casino.  As I got there, I was driving and looking for parking space.  Then I landed in a lane and an elderly couple were just getting into their vehicle to leave.  And do you want to know where their vehicle was parked?  Right in front of my parents car.  And I thought to myself, this must have costed a lot of organisation.  As they had to play and loose or win to such point that they left the building at the right time for me to get the parking – but everything just is.  Then I went inside and before I left home the Parrot told me to which row of machines he want me to go to at Grand West (the same time I got that parking).  As I went into the casino, I went to that row of machines and there were two machines open.  That was the first thing that surprised me as they are very likeable machines and the most of them were winning.  So why were two of them open?  I first tried the one, but as I tried to put my card inside, the machine spit my card out and called for an attendant, so I left this machine and went for the other one that was open. And at about the fourth or the fifth time I pressed the button, I hit a win.  Afterwards I thought to myself – what did it cost for hundreds of people to pass those two machines by and probably thinking to themselves that these machines will not win or have passed by and even worse, did not notice these machines?  How is that possible???  But Lor, this is but a few of the things that I question as to where and how did the organisation of some of the events I experience come from?  But, sometimes I catch (and it must be an underlying Force) trying to trick my mind.  And I think to myself, how many of us do not realize this?  How many just do not want to accept that reality and choose to understand something as either blue or red?  Everything seems explainable to them.  But if I look at my favourite topic, free will, there is no answer!  Is there free will?  Then I will rather ask you the question:  Do you want an answer like yes or an answer like no?  Must it be either one of the two?  But I must tell you, this underlying force I am experiencing at work in huge organisational way – like the above examples, If I try to think what and where all the organisation come from and how much is involved in one single event, it can only be a VERY AMAZING Being at work.

 

But you know, one has to careful what one asks for.  Like the other day I asked God to please give me a miracle.  Next day I find myself on the road to serve summonses and as I was on the R27, I saw this coloured guy and he looked as if he lost all hope.  I stopped and I asked him where he was going to and he said he is on his way to Saldanha.  So I said to him he must hop in.  Then I said to him I can only drop him off at the taxi rank in Blouberg and I gave him a R100 to get a taxi from there to Saldanha.  Then I went on delivering summonses – still waiting for the miracle I asked for.  Later that night, as I got to bed and thought about the day I realized something:  My request was granted, I got a miracle that day, or actually not me, that guy who was on his way from PE to Saldanha to his new job.  And I must say, I did not specify when I asked for the miracle, who it must be for!  So this guy got the miracle but I was part of it as I asked for it and how else would I have known about the happening of a miracle.  Isn’t this amazing, how what one asks for get granted?

 

I just took a brake now…

 

Two other interesting things happened now.  Both with the Lotto tickets.  Now this letter is saved as Lor33.  And as I received a Lotto Quick Pick ticket from my dad just now, I saw the time on the ticket it was bought at is:  17:08:33.  Do you still remember I told you I found you the first time at ad 61 on some ad list and if you view the above time then 1+7=8 and 8+8=16 the inverse of 61 and a 33(Lor33)!  The other one is the ticket I just bought.  It is also a Lotto Quick Pick so I have no control over the time or the numbers.  But the next happened.  I was forced to stop writing to you a while ago because of my dog (and do you still remember the dogod thing which ends up dogod or 1441?).  He was shut out of the room I was writing this letter in and got an upset stomach because of that.  I cant really explain to anybody how much that upsets me.  So here comes the Lotto ticket

 

Time:  18:43:50

Dog of dogod:  14

Last or fourth row of ticket:   03 08 12 14 20 36

 

Now if you only view the centre as the two outsides both add up to 11…

 

It gives 12 and 14.  And the time is 18:43:50 where I have come to learn that the combination of 43 can either be 4+3=7 or 4×3=12. 

So first we have 4+3=7, then it gives 18(9):7:5 or 9 and 7+5=12.

Second we have 18(6):4×3=12(3):5 or 6 + 3 + 5 = 14

 

Lore32 .

 

13/06/2005 14:03 turning 14:04

Lore, something strange happened yesterday.  We had this family gathering sort of but there were other people as well.  I felt this heaviness above my head and were talking to some of the people about the charkas and spiritual stuff.  This worsened the heavy feeling above my head to such extent later that I was feeling nauseous.  My English were perfect, in fact I tried in Afrikaans but automatically switched to English and everything just came out.  This makes me think about the blind leading the blind, I do not know much, but in relation to them, I know more at this stage than they do.  And nobody would listen if I try and tell them about the Great Mystery of things.  About free will for instance, is there one sure truth out there, as all I am finding at the moment is that for every word that exists, there is a form of existence as well?  Does that make sense to you? 

 

Anyway, I had this strange dream on the night of the 11^th and the morning of the 12^th – actually it must have been in the morning as I was woken up in the early morning hours of the 12^th to make fresh warm bottles and this dream happened afterwards.  There were these beautiful horses.  Some men were trying to ride them.  Then the horses started mating (the men were thrown off), but it was different from normal mating.  It was some kind of dance it seemed as it seemed there were music from the heavens, I did not hear it, I just thought that was what it felt like and these horses were in some kind of union.  Then the scenery changed and some event came up – also with horses.  It seemed there were something expected from this one horse that did not turn out.  I have a bit of confusion around that area as to what the people were doing then, but as I looked I saw that this horse that the fuss was about, was a donkey.  There the horse part ended.  Then I was looking in some mirror in a bathroom to do something in my face, but I could not do it as I could not make out my face as from behind me, reflecting in the mirror, was such bright light that I could not see what was going on in my face.

 

And this dream had to come on the 12^th , and care was taken to make sure I realize it was not at the night of 11^th , it was on the 12^th !  Another thing to show me to stay on the 12 thing.

I am asking myself the question why have all been done to get me and my parents all out of our jobs in Gauteng and putting us all back in the same kind of jobs, this time just in Cape Town?  All I can think of is to give us this beautiful surroundings.  Because, as I put it up above, that is exactly how it is now, we were just taken out of our jobs and our house in Gauteng, to be placed in another house in Cape Town, and the 3 of us doing the same kind of jobs again…

 

Anyway…

 

Love

Renee

13/06/2005 14:44

ns.  I am suffering with the cold, especially my feet!

 

13/06/2005 19:35 and 7+3+5=15 or 6 or fire

 

Hi again Lor

 

I have just asked in my question section what this little room is I keep getting.  It was the night after I first met the Lionlike Being.  And the name that was given is Picashurtekta.  Well, anyway, this is a kind of small “room” that is in sort of greenish light and has instrument panels.  But it seems this room pops up a lot of times and I do not know if there is a message or what.  I cannot make out…

 

Well, I said to you on the 11^th I will still give you the Lionlike Being’s name that I received and I hope I got it right.  As soon as the little room thing is cleared out I will let you know.

 

Love

Renee

13/06/2005 19:40 or 1+9,40 or 1,4 or 14!!!

 

 

15/06/2005 11:04

 

Dear Lor

 

I spoke to Len yesterday and he said sometimes when he does the attunement for the Reiki he gets told that it is not even necessary.  I am still scared though to go for the attunement.  As it is I am going through a rough time with the energy thing.  I have this heavy feeling above my head and I have to be real careful as to the eating thing.  And as I was wondering about my “ailment”, I saw the Lionlike Being sort of in a gym and pressing down a lever with weights on as if pressing down that load of weights into me.  And with this cold it is not easy, as my solar plexus is making me suffer as it closes up when I am getting cold.  Then there is the issue, that I have noticed so far also, of the clothes and the shoes.  The clothing must not be too heavy on my back just below my neck area.  If that is too thick into clothing I get spasms supreme in my back, below the neck area.  And if my shoes are closed and my feet cant breath, I get an upset stomach and nauseous.  But I guess I will eventually get used to all.  It is just, at times my hands are actually vibrating and I do not know what to do with that?  The whole thing is just, I do not know how to use all this constructively!  Or even a bigger question for me – is something more constructive meant to be???

 

Renee

15/06/2005 11:32 And you will see that this letter is Lor32…

 

 

 

 

This is Lore31 .

 

 

09/06/2005 14:24 and 2 + 4 = 6 or fire

 

Dear Lor

 

What a day!  But I do not know where to begin…

On my way to Pick and Pay, to get the dogs their chicken, I felt so confused.  I do not know if we are doing things because of contracts before we are born and for that matter where does free will come in?  It seems we must be missing sometimes on things coming our way – if that is possible at all?  A lot of spiritual people make the assumption that we are here to learn lessons – then it cannot just be ourselves, it has to be all the more than 6 billion people on the planet?  Who orchestrates those lessons then, as one thought might influence people around the globe, let alone a choice one person make?  And if we have free will with our choices, how on earth is it possible to handle more than 6 billion people who for instance do not make the choice he is suppose to make?  How many get influenced by that decision that person makes?

 

Does there happen things that are not meant to be?  This brings me to the question that the so called “bad” things that happen, like a man raping a baby, is that a lesson the rapist has to learn?  Is that part of the rapists path or agreement (if there is such thing)?  If it is a lesson to be learned or part of the path of that person, does that make that kind of deed acceptable?  By all means, it was then meant for this person to learn this lesson?  But then, look at this persons point of view then:  who was responsible for this person doing the deed because it is a lesson?  Can you see where it takes us if we start with lessons and agreements?  On the other hand, if there is no such thing as lessons and agreements, there were but One Creator?  Can this Creator distance Itself from such a happening – a person raping a baby for instance?  But what will happen to the world if that is true – a Creator not distanced from such happening?  But I think even worse; a Creator distanced from such happening as then everything was not created by One Creator – as there are some things the One Creator distance Itself from.  This does not make sense:  One Creator of Everything, but there are things happening that this Creator has not created – how is that possible?  Where does that happening(rape situation) then come from?  At this point I think we mostly put it on ourselves because we do not know of better – and even more so, maybe there isn’t a better to know!  Oh Lorraine, I am so confused!  These are such paradoxes, but most do not even consider the question – and I can understand why.  The confusement  is worse than accepting a thing either as black or as white.  Let alone deal with Creator issues!

But now I think if we deal with the question why Creation took place – one scenario is for the Creator to experience.  But then you get to the question but how do we then deal with the rapist as it took place for the Creator to experience?  So again we are back to square one:  what lies beyond this person doing the “bad” deed?  Even more so, if we look at our timeframe, in 5000 years time, what about that deed that happened?  We are in this world, for me it seems like a world of paradoxes, but why do we not see all these paradoxes?  Lor, I need clarity and the only clarity I have at this stage is to do what you said:  Just be, do not analise as it only confuse one and that is what the whole mystery is all about – it is hidden and we think that there is an answer, like it must be either blue or red and we choose one of these two colours to save us from not going crazy?

 

I had so much pain just before I started writing to you now.  My friend gave her cats up for adoption this afternoon!  And maybe I am stupid, but I could see nothing else than confusement for the cats – I felt so terrible for their sake!!!  And I cannot imagine giving my dog off.  I remember that Saturday where I opened the gate for my little dog and sent him off into the big world out there…  it took so much from me that it was the final thing that made me take all those pills!  Seeing this little thing, this little animal going off – where will he go to and what will happen to him?  But he came back to me – but unfortunately I took the pills by that time already – and in those days I was “out” he was there with me as when I got back to life again, he was there and I took him and myself that night at 22:00 and we went to my parents house.  But believe me:  I can still see very clearly the small little bundle of life, with a small little royal blue jacket, going off into the big bad world – how is it possible to feel this way about the animals?  Even now my friends’ cats – I cannot even make out why I have so much pain about the whole situation?

And the Parrot says:  They have done for her what they were suppose to do for her and it is the end of that task, now they have to move on to their next task…

 

Oh Lor, what a Supreme Mystery we do not find ourselves in?  How do you cope with all this???  I have asked the question what is knowledge, but knowledge can be (it seems) that “A” is true, but at the same time is also not true…

 

Love

Renee

09/06/2005 15:18 and 3 + 1 + 8 = 12 but 1 + 8 =9 as we started with…

Lore28 .

 

 

07/05/2005 20:30 or 07/05/07 2:3 or 757 and 5

 

Hi Lor

 

I was just wondering about Descartes statement:  I think, therefore I am.  Does that mean that if I do not think, I am not?  Or that anything that does not have consciousness, does not exist and with that implying that everything that exists, there must be a consciousness of itself?  And does that form of existence mean only a form of matter?  Space exists – though we are not sure what it consists of?  As the mere word “space” imply that there must be something in our frame of mind that we call space.  Now the question:  does space have a consciousness of itself, as it exists?  Space have a space in our 3 dimensional reality, therefore it exists.

 

 

 

12:54 09/05/2005

 

Hi Lor

 

I want to tell you a flea story today.  One day, there were a lot of fleas on this particular dog.  And because they were multiplying so much, the fleas decided to get some structure as it was needed because there were too many fleas on this dog.

At first they decided that they must give each flea its own piece of the dog as the fleas became irritated with one another as there was not only one who wanted to be under the armpit, there were a lot.  So they realized they had a problem.  Then they knew they were going to have to have some structures put into place for everyone to survive.  So they decided that each flea could set aside a piece on the dog’s body that will only be that flea’s piece of ground.  But then it became a problem as each one claimed a place but the other one who also wanted the place, claimed it his place as well.  So they got together pen and paper and started an office where the claims were going to be kept.  And they got fleas who were starting to write laws for the structure.  They also invented a money system so that each flea, after he bought a piece of ground, could say, but I have paid for this claim, this makes this claim my place and it is after the payment now on black and white in an office that this piece is my piece.  But then they had to get someone to work at this claims office.  And because they invented a money system and law system, they also had to have someone to take care that the new law principles are exercised.  So they had fleas working in the office and they had policeman fleas as well.  But the policeman fleas, and the office working fleas became a problem as they had to eat from the dog’s body as well, so the fleas who had bought pieces for themselves on the dog, started their own industries to manufacture containers to put “food” in for the fleas who were delivering a service to all the fleas on the dog.  This system then seem to create more jobs as some of the fleas had to go and work in the industries who manufactured the containers – and then these fleas working in the industries, had to get container food as well.  This ended up in the fleas who had pieces on the dog, not getting enough time to eat themselves as they had to fill containers for the other fleas who was delivering services for all the fleas.  So they ended up being in service as well.  Now all the fleas was in some sort of service on the dog and they stopped thinking of themselves as fleas on the dog, they were too busy delivering services!

 

Then one day the owner of the dog decided to bath the dog and treat the dog for fleas.

Well, I wonder what is going to happen to us?

 

Love

Renee

09/05/2005 13:14

 

Lore27 .

 

02/05/2005 14:39 or    14:12 or 2:12 :  regarding 1412, just read in a book that Joan of Arc was apparently born in 1412  and regarding 212, as 0 means nothing, 2012 

 

Dear Lor

 

I think I have received a lot of new information.  I had this dream the other night – by the way, do one receive information in dreams? – that I was going through a door with a guy I knew from my police days.  I am forgetting his name but I know he was born on exactly the same day and month and year as I was born.  So the two of us landed together to go through the door and we danced inside.  There were some other people inside as well, but I could not first understand how he was dancing but eventually figured out by watching his feet, and he had tekkies on with white holes and white soles and a white part on the toes.  Then I was working at this one place and I had to go through a part of the place where it seems sales were made, but everything was in whitish, silverish colour.  Then I went up the stairs to the door at the top of the stairs and I knew exactly what was going on behind the door, as my workplace which I was sort of familiar with was there, even before I went through.

 

Then there were another night, I first got such a fright, that I was woken up by a little black boy and he just woke me up and then went through the window.  As I woke up, I realized I was in my bed, but it was not my room – at least not the room I am sleeping in at the moment.  It could well have been my room I had when I was a child and we stayed in Zambezi Road 115 in Pretoria (and the Zambezi road name, might explain as I realized just now, the black boy).  But as I realized the room was different,  I heard footsteps and wanted to turn and look who it was, but could not turn my head – and with this fear of not being able to turn my head, I “woke up” in my room and looked immediately towards my door and saw I was back in my room that I am sleeping in now.  Now this event only realized the afternoon and I was so bewildered as I thought what does a tokolosi want from me?  Where is my protection, what is going on?  And even worse, I sent Ronel an sms explaining in short what happened and she sms back saying she hope I did not open a doorway to the darklords!  This baffled my mind and you were not available so I phoned up Margaret and she helped me by suggesting I go into my core and ask if that is my truth.  Which I tried and I was only shown that the doorway that the little pixie used, behind it was light.

 

Lor, do you think I will do anything that I am not suppose to be doing or want to be doing, because of a lack of knowledge???

 

Well, and then there is last night. The first dream I had, me and my mother and father, though they did not figure heavily, and my grandparents on my mother’s side and her brother and his wife that shot herself, we were waiting for a train to take us through a kind of a tunnel to another town of where we were going to stay.  This was kind of a hotel place and the tunnel or what ever you call it, was 58 km long.  But we went in and got out again.  On the other side my grandfather was looking at some strange cattle and my mother’s brother, it seems his leg was in crutches or something, he was the manager of the hotel, but I was all over the place.  How we settled in there.  The end of this dream was showing that the place across this hotel had a lot of swimming pools.

Then I was sort of awake, but must have fallen asleep again and saw this pink/purple doorway.  And I went through it.  On the other side was ancient stuff supposedly.

Then the venue changed and I saw these two men bargaining that the one will harm the other man in his right shoulder.  And then this guy who was to be hurt in the shoulder, drove off and presumably the other then hurt him in the shoulder.  Then there was this woman at this hotel where my family took over a hotel, but she was put in jail at the back of this hotel complex by a policeman.  I once saw a movie of Joan of Arc and this woman resembled the lady who played the role of Joan of Arc.  But then it was me and I had to climb a kind of primitive ladder to the top where the jail is and as the policeman opened the jail door, I saw inside and me and the woman, as one, said it was ok, as I could see the sunlight inside the compartment.  And I saw her go in and I heard her talking saying that it will come out that she is innocent and I was sort of wondering if she knows what she is talking about as I did not think the people would think she is innocent, though I knew she was innocent – and the best is, I do not know of what, but it had something to do with the two gentlemen who was agreeing that the one was going to injure the other in the shoulder.  And then I woke up…

 

Lor, I know this might sound terribly crazy, but do you make anything of it?  All I know that there are such things as doorways – but how and what they are in essence, I do not know.  Then I have also learnt from the Kabalah book I am reading that ladders, stairs and trees are the stuff leading to “heaven”.  I have asked in a letter that I only deal with what is from the Light.  I do not know if there is anything else I can do or that I must do.

 

Did I tell you what happened as I was sleeping over at Ingrids place that weekend, what happened that Saturday night?  A Doorway in the sky – in the pastel blue, bluest sky – opened and a guy with a sword of Light, appeared in that door.

 

You see, all this stuff is happening and I do not know exactly what to make of it, or with it than bear it in mind. (And I got the three bears on that native American machine at Grand West twice yesterday!)

 

Anyway, this must seem like such a deurmekaar spul…

 

Love

Renee

02/05/2005 15:25 or 3:25pm which gives us 3 25’s:  02/05,  2005  3:25!