The Cave of Time. July 25, 2008
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10/02/2006 14:48 and 4 + 8 = 12 and 10/02 is 1(0)(0)2 or 12 and (0)(0) and 14 + (2+6) = 22.
This is Lore83 and I am 38
Dear Lore
I am not sure if this letter is going to get mailed to you. I was playing around printing pictures of my dog when at one stage I had so much pain in my tongue that I went and lie down. Then I saw this picture of these stairs, like in a tower. And I followed them up and opened a door and there was someone sitting, but it seemed that who ever was sitting there was an animation. And this someone wrote with a feather to me what this someone wanted – I had to delete the photo album I made of my dog, because of the name I gave it. And I did it.
But I went and sat down now and was shown that day when I was with Len and did a past life regression. When I got that man in some kind of chamber, also writing and then me going out of that chamber, into a corridor, and following the bowls of fire I finally reached an opening where I had a view on an open space in this cave or something. And I saw the sphinx and history playing itself off in fast forward. And neither me, nor Len, could make anything of this. Maybe this being I saw the first time, in that chamber, was writing about this fast forward I came across. But writing has got all to do with language, and the fast forward part I came across started by me viewing the sphinx. But that was just part of it, but isn’t it all symbols, and isn’t language symbols. And why did both today’s being and that day’s being, use a feather to write? Today is stairs up into some top of a tower, but that day, when me and Len did the past life regression, it was inside something – I thought it might have been a cave, but there was no entrance to this cave to show or proof it a cave, it was merely inside something.
Anyway, this is a bit clearer to me now, though I do not know what to make of it…
LOVE
Renee
10/02/2006 15:01 or 151, now is it two air numbers 1 and 5 or is it a number of fire, 6?
Ns. Don’t know if this will get send to you…
02/03/2006 15:06 and 1 + 5 = 6 and 6 + 6 = 12.
Dear Lore
The above I wrote into my journal while the power was down.
“02/02/2006 11:19
My name is R ENE E
But ene translated from Afrikaans to English means ones
But the values of the letters in the alphabet of the word one, equal 6(15th) + 5(14th) = 11 + 5 (the e) = 16 and s equal 19th letter or 1
Which gives 161 or 8 and 1 + 1 + 6, or 2 and 6 or 26.
And then we are left with RE – the two side letters – which
are also related to RA.
But ENE – if you make the pattern 3NE where 3 are just E the other way round, then you have 3N(14th)E(5th)
This gives 3 + 14 + 5 = 22
11:25 or added, 9”
LOVE
Renee
02/03/2006 15:27 and I checked on my cell phone the time I first saw the sunbird and that was 12:27. It was exactly 3 hours ago in this 3rd month or 33. Which leaves the date with a 2 and a 2, and a 6. But the 3 + 3 = 6 + 6 = 12 and the 2 + 2 = 22.
How ava414 found the Values and Meanings of Numbers and Symbolisms. July 21, 2008
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07/02/2006 20:40 or 8:40pm and 8 + 4 = 12 and date gives 7 2 2 6 or 7 + 6 and 22.
This is Lore82
Dear Lore
If nothing was before eternity (eternity had no origin), then nothing is surrounding eternity.
But if nothing were before God – that is exactly what it says, nothing was before God, God was first, as nothing was before God.
This does not imply an origin for God – it merely says that God was first, as before God, there was nothing. So the word “first” in this instance does not imply a beginning. Is that a paradox? Something that is first but is not a beginning?
I cannot wrap my mind around God, nothing can.
LOVE
Renee
07/02/2006 20:52 or the date as above but the time a 2 0 5 2 or 05 and 22 from the time and 22 from the date
Or
22 22 22
And this is linked to letter on 12/07/2004 and if you look at Lor82’s beginning time there is a 12 in the time and a 07 in the date and also in the time there is 20:40 or a 2, 0, 0, and a 4.
12 July 2004
If God is everywhere
If God is everywhere God must be in everything and every particle. Then there cannot be a nothing as where nothing is suppose to be, God is there already – so if we view nothing as something (nothing) then even as nothing is something God is everywhere, even in nothing. But if there are a reality where there is nothing, or where the nothing has an existence as nothing, then God cannot be everywhere as there are a part where there is nothing. So either nothing does not exist or never existed or God is not everywhere. But even if we put it that way we give nothing an existence, a place where God does not exist.
So if God is everywhere, could nothing ever before have existed – again if it existed it was something. So where did everything that is now everywhere, come from? Something must have been there(eternal?) before everything came into existence. Is God eternal or did God create eternity? If eternity was also created it must have a beginning and eternity imply no beginning and no end so if created it imply a beginning and therefore is not eternity anymore. But if everything is everywhere into eternity, one can also ask the question then, what was before eternity was created? What is that something that was in existence before “everything” came into existence and before eternity. Did eternity have an origin? If we think that eternity had an origin, surely there must have been a time where eternity did not exist. And that means eternity cannot be called eternity anymore then. And out of our boundaries as human beings, does time have any existence so that we can say that in a time frame there must have been an origin for everything.
The only place where God does not exist then is nothing – and nothing has no existence. Does this mean God exist? If there are no place called nothing then we are just left with eternity of space – it may be empty but it is still space, it is still something. And everything(God is in everything) is God, even empty space. But if God is also in nothing – and God is everywhere, and nothing does not exist – only if God then does not exist can one say God is also in nothing, but again God would have existed because God would have been something namely nothing. This is only if God is everywhere.
But if there are no nothing, as we saw above for eternity to exist there can not be an origin and therefore a nothing before origin, there always had to be something. Even Oneness means something, namely oneness.
18:45
or
9 9 9
It seems the letter that ended on 22, 22, 22, are giving a bit of relief on the letter that ended 9, 9, 9.
It also seemed something very spectacular took place today on the N1 into Cape Town. This was close to the Tygervalley off ramp. One of these 22 meter long lorries was lying on its side right across the one lane of the N1 – the part that comes from Paarl and goes into the city. This cause that the cars coming from Paarl, could not move at all – this spectacular event held up everything behind it.
LOVE
Renee
07/02/2006 23:11 or 11:11 and 11 + 11 = 22
10/02/2006 15:08 turning 09 and 8 + 9 = 17, which is indirectly linked to the Hebrew name of God that in gematria add up to 44.
Dear Lore
If God used human beings as symbol to represent God to bring messages, can we ignore that a symbol has been used to symbolise God for us? Jesus, Mohammed, Buddha? What about all the symbolism in their lives? Each religion thrive on that symbolism.
Was the animation of Mohammed some form of symbolism?
But where did mankind take that symbolism to? I am wondering as all this fuss and noise is going on – an animation cannot be more of a way of symbolism and focussing our attention on symbolism. But we, the world, we do not see that – thought the fuss must be made about the Mohammed animation, don’t we now need to see beyond the anger and the people that agree on the anger and those that disagree on the anger and the fuss and noise, and see that on this planet, our attention is focused on symbolism? I am just asking? I always wonder when major things happen and there are those for and those against what happened, if it is not something that happened that in another form needs our attention, or want to focus our attention on something?
Things happen in weird and wonderful ways it seems.
LOVE
Renee
10/02/2006 15:21 and 10/02 can also be 12 but the end minutes is 21, the inverses.
10/02/2006 23:33 or 11:33 or 2:6
Dear Lore
This is for Linda:
If you look at the word Allah, the numerical values in English is:
“A” 1
“L” 3 or (12)
“L” 3 or (12)
“A” 1
and 1 + 3 + 3 + 1 = 8 and
“H” 8
But if you look at 1331 then 1 + 3 = 4 and 3 + 1 = 4 or 44. And looking at all my previous letters about the 13 and 31 combination, this I find extroadinary. But why this is for Linda, is because in her book Mystery of the White Lions, the first thing she has is a map with the Zet Tepi meridian. This is 31’14”E – but what is important for me is the 31 and the 14, the two numbers I got in Lor81 on the 05th of the 2nd. That was the combinations 13:41 and 14:31 and I did not understand why. But now tonight I put together the 1331 combined with an 8, or which is a 44 (8), and we have the dogod thing that needs no explaining anymore which is 1441. But this is also (1)44(1) combination, where as in both, the common denominator is 44.
1. But the “Allah” is 44 and one number combination and the dogod is 44 and two combinations. Now the 8 with the left side of the “dogod” ‘s 44’s 1 equal 9 and so does it with the other side. But 9 + 9 = 18 but equal 9 again.
2. But now, the Great Sphinx is on the 30 degree N and Timbavati on the 24 degree S. And 3 + 2 + 4 = 9.
This gives that both 1 and 2 resemble the same number, 9.
1. But the “Allah” is 44 and one number (8) combination and the dogod is 44 and two (1) combinations.
2. But Timbavati is 24 degrees S and Sokar is 24 degrees N. But both have a 2 and a 4(24), but if you make of the 24, the first one one and the second one two, you get 2 and 44. Then if you make the two 4’s one number, it is 8 (but you still have the initial 44), and if you take the 2, one number, and make it the sum total of the two 1’s (you still have the initial 2, but you have a (1) and a (1) also as you make 1+1 to make this 2).
This gives from 1 and 2 that 2 correlates in some special form of pattern to 1.
Also some form of inverse pattern. Further is S for South, the 19th letter and 19 I connect with beginning and end.
And North’s “N” is the 14th letter, now isn’t it odd that it is the number 14?
Does this link all this? Especially after all my other references to these 1331 and 1441 combinations? For me, this is such a new view…
Anyway…
LOVE
Renee
11/02/2006 00:05 and 5 the sacred number of the White Lions.
11/02/2006 14:41 talking of 5 and of 1441…
Dear Lore
I just received a while ago a sms from my friend Karina. The father of her child’s second name is Llewellyn. This sms I received on 11/02/06 13:47 and 4 +7 =11. But what is amazing for me is the language thing and the following. According to her sms the name means: like a lion. But when I went and looked at the letters of the name you see 4 obvious “L”’s. And the word Lion starts with an “L”. But you also have the “y”, which is the 25th letter or added a 7 and added to the last “n”, which is the 14th letter or added a 5, you have 7 + 5 = 12. And “L” is the 12th letter of the English alphabet. This gives 4 obvious “L”’s and 1 indirect “L” or added, 5 “L”s for Lion. And isn’t 5 the sacred number of the White Lions? But further:
The “y” is the 25th letter which gives 5 fives. And besides all the “L”’s and this “y”, we are left with 4 other 5’s (letters who’s place in the alphabet adds up to 5). This gives us 5 + 4 = 9 fives. There cannot be more fives.
Now isn’t it amazing that the meaning of the name is also related to Lion and in this way I have just illustrated, is so linked to the Lions. But this makes me also think of spider’s web and the language thing, how intricately woven things may be…
LOVE
Renee
11/02/2006 14:52 and the “y” was the 25th letter and gave 5 fives, but this 52 is just the inverse of 25. But 14:52 added, adds up to 12 or “L” of Lion.
11/02/2006 15:03 or 3:03 or 6 + 3 = 9, but talking of five..
Dear Lore
Just shortly. I was lying with closed eyes on the couch now and heard the TV advertise that one must sms the number 5 to 32722. And I remembered that I got an sms last night (it is 1.1.2 and it is 10/02/06 21:22) and started adding the 32722. And I realized that 3 + 2 = 5 + 7 = 12. And are left with the 22. The 12 is just the inverse of the time receiving the sms last night, 21:22. But it is linked to 22, both and the 12th letter is “L” and the 32722 is linked to 5 today on the TV. But this is actually a tape of what I taped for my parents last night of Noot vir Noot. This sms the number 5, is during the Noot vir Noot program last night – 10/02/2006, or 1, 2, 2, 6 or the outsides, 16 and the insides, 22. And 16 is linked to you and Linda. And of course again, 22.
It feels, if my mind is going into some depths – does that make sense? Well, considering the only thing that make sense is nothing…
LOVE
Renee
11/02/2006 15:12 and what does the letter “L” at this stage lead to? Lion?
11/02/2006 16:10 or 161(0) – you and Linda, and both of you’s name start with an L.
Dear Lore
Well, seeing that I am playing around with the English alphabet in these letters, and the numbers, I was thinking that it is the year 2006, and that the English alphabet has got 26 letters, therefore goes up to the number 26. And I thought to myself but in 2002, that is 22 and that is how much the Hebrew alphabet has got. But then it appeared to me that the rabbi has apparently spoke about the Kabalah and its connection to 32 – this is not necessarily an alphabet, but something about it made me think there is more to it, is if you view that this year is 2006 and you view the number 26, then there is 6 to add to get to 32, but if you add 6 years to 2006, you get to 2012.
But if I keep playing around, then 2012, the 2 +1 =3 and we are left with a 2 or 32.
What am I doing?
LOVE
Renee
11/02/2006 16:17 and 17 is indirectly linked to the 44.
13/01/2006 13:49 or 13:13 this is linked to the letter that was written from 10/02/2006 23:33 (2+3=5 – the beginning of the time and the beginning time in whole of the letter) to 11/02/2006 00:05 (the end of the time and the end of the time in the whole of the letter) but in the dates was first(1) a 16 (on the sides) and a 22(4) and second(2) a 116 (on the sides) and a 22(4). But besides the first and the second, we are left with a 44 – like in the time of this letter 13:13 or 44.
Dear Lore
I wonder if today has got anything to do with Mohammed or Allah – see my letter Lore82. But if you look at the name Mohammed, it starts with an “M”, which is the 13th letter of the English alphabet. Now isn’t that coincidence? That the name the followers of Mohammed use, has such connection with 13, and so does the name of Mohammed, as it starts with an “M”, also linked to 13. I was just thinking a while ago, if we live up to our name’s meanings, or does the meaning live up to the name? I drove past a man who is advertised on a lamppost as Werner Scwella, but his neck is so swollen, must be a bit of fat as I do not think he is ill – and I realized how he is fitting into his Scwella. And then I thought of that psychologist I went to and how her name mean that she “classifies” things – and that is exactly what she does. So is she and Werner Scwella living up to what their names say or did they develop into that as their names left them no choice? Or did they make the choice to be what their names want them to be long before they were born – who will ever know?
As I also looked at the word Cupido and if you look at their places in the alphabet, then “C” is the 3rd, “u” the 21st or added 3, “p” the 16th or added 7, “i” the 9th, “d” the 4th and “o” the 15th or added 6. This gives a 3 + 3 + 7 = 13 or 4 and another 4 and 6 or 4 + 4 + 6 =14 or also 44 and 6. But it gives a 14 as well, that is the important thing – and on what day is Valentines Day?
So how interconnected with numbers/symbolism is everything?
LOVE
Renee
13/02/2006 13:54
The Beginning of Robert Brown, the Birth of Atoms July 21, 2008
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31/01/2006 11:41 and this leaves us with a beginning of 31 and end of 41, and by now you know what these combinations are up for..
From the date 1. 31
2. 01
From the time 2. 41
1. 11
This leaves us with the year – which has no mate – namely 2006 or 2 + 6 = 8, but there are 2 0’s
This is Lor80 and in beginning of letter we reach result of 8 and 0 and 0 – so it seems we have a 0 that we do not know what to do with
Dear Lore
My friend Karina yesterday made the remark that it seems the fires in Cape Peninsula is in all the areas where rich people stay. Yesterday afternoon I spoke to my mom about this and she told me that her and my father just the night before, read in the Bible, in the New Testament that Paul said that everyone must sell all they have and give everything to the church and the church will then decide who needs what and give accordingly. But you even have to sell your house. To say the least, I was shocked (but I wonder why – is it something that needs my attention?).
Rich people, it seems, is something the Afrikaans churches are not really discussing, as it seems to me that they need the rich people in their church so that those people can help pay the bills for the church expenses – and that includes the food on the table for the minister.
My mom and I were just wondering, after you sold your house and everything – it seems you just must not be gay if you do this and give to the church, as you will stand last in the queue to receive something again as you are a sinner. But who knows, maybe if all the gay people sell all their stuff and give it to the church, the church will change their mind about if being gay is a sin or not.
And I am thinking now how I laughed that day when my friend Colleen said that God put people on the planet to make money. That was just hilarious. Well, and it seems if there is one thing we all do, in some or other way, we earn money. No wonder she came to that conclusion.
But I do not know, if one does not have money, you cannot live in this day and age. Part of the process of getting the planet where it is, was the evolution of money as well.
But what I have been thinking about a lot is that Len always say that the people are trashing the planet – but I am still driving my car and Len as well – so we are part of the “mob” who is trashing the planet. Whether we like it or not, we are part of everybody and we do what everybody is doing, we live, with the need to have money to survive and our cars, to get us where we need to go to earn that money. Nobody really want to trash the planet – I do not believe for one second that any person will want to be that person who is trashing the planet. But we must all live, we must all in some or other way earn a living, so we have to “trash” the planet. And that is what it comes down to:
Nobody wants to trash the planet, we just all have to…we are all just trying to do our job. This mean, if we are only doing our job, we are not trashing the planet, we are doing our job.
Nobody want to be that “bad” person, we just do not have a choice – so maybe “bad” is only again the appearance of “bad”, but seeing we do not have a choice and everything just is, is it still bad or is it good or is it neither bad nor good?
It seems to me I was wrong in that letter two years ago, where I still thought that healers are the only ones who can help others. This comes down to healers are the only ones who can save the planet – but who says the planet needs saving? And everybody want to save the planet, but everybody cannot be healers as if everybody is healers, there will be no patients and if there are no patients, there will be no healers.
I don’t know, what you said that everything just is, makes more and more sense.
LOVE
Renee
31/01/2006 12:32 or 13 (the first of the hour and the first of the minute) and 22 (what’s left).
31/01/2006 19:37 and 3 + 7 = 10 or 191
Dear Lore
My mother and I were just having a conversation about the temperature in Cape Town tomorrow. And I said to her I just hope I do not get cold feet again and have to put on my kind of Eskimo jacket. I do not know why, but sometimes, even if it is 30 degrees in Cape Town, I am getting so cold that I have to put socks on and my Eskimo jacket. My mother know this is not just something I make up as she one day felt my feet and felt that they were two blocks of ice.
So my mother said she must phone the psychologist up and tell her there is something wrong with me and that the psychologist must book a place for me in Stikland. And I said to my mother but before they can certify me for wearing a jacket in such heat, they will have to explain why my feet are two blocks of ice! And my mother said: They will think you are some kind of reptile or something from outer space. And I said to her well then the psychologist and the psychiatrist who want to certify me must be careful to not get certified themselves, as I have the same body as everybody else – I look just as human as anybody else. (Only have a few bruises from the shooting incident on my body left) So if they claim I am a reptile, how are they going to convince the other people – they will be questioned as a human that looks like a human, but only have cold feet in a temperature of 30 degrees, are being called a reptile by them. I think they then stand a better chance of getting certified than I do as I have my cold feet to explain why I am wearing the jacket, but they have got absolutely nothing to base it upon that I am a reptile!
I wonder tonight about events in the past. Like the person who referred me to the psychiatrist who thought of certifying me, got shot in the head (she shot herself) and so did that same psychiatrist (the one who thought of certifying me) land up, shot in the face – by a jealous husband because she had a relationship with one of her patients.
Anyway, we will see where to this develops.
LOVE
Renee
31/01/2006 19:54 turning 55.
31/01/2006 21:44
Dear Lore
My brother just phoned and they wanted to know something that his wife’s sisters child needed for a task. It was about the “Brown Movement”. What is very strange to me about this is that Robert Brown saw under the microscope that molecules were jumping around and could not understand why. But eventually it was accepted by the scientific community that it is molecules that are not visible (no one ever before witnessed them or have seen them) – that means they are invisible – are responsible for this phenomenon. I cannot believe that the scientific community could come to such conclusion? The scientists just want us to believe that something nobody has ever seen before, something invisible, is having an influence in our reality. The only proof we have of something invisible existing is the conclusion, to what Robert Brown could not explain, the scientists came to and accepted. I just wonder why so many scientists have a problem then with the existence of God? For me it comes down to the same principle. Something invisible that is exercising an influence of some kind.
What is also amazing that also came to mind now, is that mankind invented an imaginary number system in mathematics – maybe all we have reached is because of a little bit of imagination
Anyway…
LOVE
Renee
31/01/2006 21:54 and 21 hours resemble 9 and 5 + 4 = 9 which gives 9:9
Wizards and Symbolisms… July 20, 2008
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Lore79.
28/01/2006 19:01 and the date is 10 (2 + 
and 9 (1 + 2 + 6) or 1 and 9 or added, a 1, as in the time. But, the time alone added gives as 19 is 7 o’clock, 7 + 1 = 8 which gives us a 1 and 8, or 18
This is Lore79 and 7 + 9 = 16 and add the beginning sum total, we get 16 and 18 or 1618, and the number phi equal 1.618…
Dear Lore
This must probably be a special letter as 7 + 9 = 16, the inverse of the number you are associated with and the number I link to Linda.
Something very strange happened this late afternoon. We were eating and there were one incredible fly irritating me to a point of frustration. Then I got something to hit it with and went sitting again to eat further. Then he came and irritated me again and I wanted to hit it – my father and mother was at some stage shouting at me, as the fly was sitting apparently right in front of my eyes, but the strange thing is, I did not see it. So I blindly hit as my parents told me the fly was right under my eye and as I started hitting, I saw the fly. But what I could not believe, was that I could not see it. How could I not have seen it?
This I went and wrote in my journal at 18:15 and end time18:18 or 9:9. Then I went to lie down and the following came to mind.
Some people see things that are not there and they get called crazy – but I could not see something other people can see and I thought of what that made me. The inverse of crazy? Well, lets look at that as it seems it leaves us then with yzarc. I wonder what the difference between a whyzarc and a wiser is as their sound appear to be very close? As it seems not even sound is completely free of appearances? And I am no wizer but I am questioning – and do you think if you ask the question why, it comes down to an answer always? What if a mere question is an answer?
But if you view the word wizard (which can be related to the word wiser), then the difference is that wizard and whyzard only differs with the “i” being replaced with “hy”. And “i” is the 9th letter, and “h” is the 8th letter in the English alphabet and “y” the 25th, or 8 and 7 which adds up to 15 or 6. And if you look at 9 and 6 then 6 is the upside down of 9, also some form of inverse.
The highlighted sentence was written down in my journal with beginning time 18:38 or 9:11 and the end time was18:40 turning 41. And 40 + 41 is 81 which gives 18:81, or the inverses again.
Just thought to share this whyzardness with you…But, as the wizard has got something to do with magic, my question is just this: Can flies be manipulated? As how did this one know exactly what to do to irritate me and then to go and sit right underneath my view for up till I decided to hit blindly as I could not see it, though my parents were getting very irritated because I could not see it. But the fly stood its ground and stayed sitting – for me to hit him eventually.
And this question leaves me back at square 1, which coincidentally equal One.
LOVE
Renee
28/01/2006 19:17 and we were parked today at Grand West as follows – there were 7 cars and then ours (1) which make it a 7 and 1 (7 others and 1 which was ours) or which gives a 17 in the end minutes and linked today with the 71 or the inverses again
28/01/2006 20:19 and the beginning minutes is 1 and 9 or beginning and end – and taken literally, how is the beginning the same as the beginning and end? Are we back to the circle now?
Anyway, Dear Lore
It seems we put symbolism everywhere. I am wondering of the above, of what I made of words, isn’t words and letters just symbols? If we look at numbers, aren’t they just symbols? But if you view numbers, they can for instance be 1 or one – where or how did the symbol became actually confusing by both representing One? Isn’t symbols powerful, but confusing? We use them all day, in everything we do, we use it: we talk, we read, we write, we work with money (that consist of numbers), we wear watches which is the symbol for our time, etc. But if symbols is in everything, then the most basic part of our existence, must also be a symbol, as symbols is in everything. This is only if symbols is in everything. And what kind of symbols did we choose to base our everything on – to such extent where we are in this day and age? Why did we choose to give eternity a symbol for instance? Not only in word, but also in mathematical terms. And then we go even further and we give the number 8 (in numerology), the resemblance of eternity, as it looks like the sign of eternity in mathematical terms, just on its side. And even more so we connect an animal, the spider, to eternity because its body resemble an 8. Are we, like spider, weaving when we symbolize? And with symbolize I refer to all the possible ways that we give “things” symbols. Look what happened in the first letter of Lor79. What am I doing in all my letters with the numbers for instance – and putting them in twisted ways with words? Or am I putting words with numbers? And is this important, as both are only symbols?
Even sound are symbolic. And it seems the Bible says that in the beginning was the Word, and the Word was God. Never mind that even the written words in these sentences are symbols, but in the beginning was the Word – and this comes down to a symbol. Even in Genesis do we find that God created through words – and this comes down to symbols.
Suddenly I feel so stuck, in all the webs of symbols that seems to make up what we call reality. I can see how eternally small the symbols go. When I see how linked all are, I just see the Greatness of how we experience reality the way we do – not falling into this intricate webs. I would never believed that I would say this, but I am glad that there are even an emotion like anger – as if I take what I am seeing now, this intricate webs, falling into them I think will be worse than experiencing a moment of anger. While I am in these webs, I wonder to myself why the people are making an issue of sins – as they are nothing in comparison to landing in these intricate webs. In these webs they (things that’s called sins like greed and lust and hatred, etc) loose their sting. Its like the global dimming effect that safes us from global warming – our pollution saving us, or in other words, something that has the appearance that it is bad, but it actually saves us from something else, the intricate webs which seems like something of an illusion. A blessing in disguise.
I’ll speak again to you later.
LOVE
Renee
28/01/2006 20:55 and 2 + 8 = 10 and so does 5 + 5 = 10 – but what does the 28 combination have to do with the 55 combination, they only add up to the same symbol? 10?
28/01/2006 22:58 and 2 + 2 = 4 and 5 + 8 = 13 or 4 which gives 44 – and 44 is explicit direct to the name of God in Hebrew meaning: “I will be revealed at ever greater levels”
Dear Lore
We had a strange thing in our front yard this morning. A children’s church advertised itself by putting their name on a balloon, filling it with air and putting the filled balloon on a stick and putting the stick into our flower beds. The balloon is purple.
As we left this morning the balloon was full – but at our return it ran out of air nearly totally. And we still made a remark about it. But as I walked passed the balloon now and saw it again, I remembered what I wrote to you in Lor78 about our professor at university who explained that all stars are like dots on a balloon and as you fill the balloon with air, that is how you may observe how the stars are all moving away from one another. And I am pulling my eyes big now as I am wondering about what happens if all the air, like in today’s balloon, is unleashed and the stars get closer to one another again – I do not know if that is possible, but I just wondered. This makes me think of breathing in – filling the balloon with air and all the stars moving away from one another, and breathing out, unleashing the air and the stars getting back to normal (?) again? Oh, what imagination cannot do…
I was just remembering also what Rebbe Nachman said, that God made space within God Self for creation – what will I get if I ad my imagination to this:
- something linked to God and the creation that was made space for inside God apparently
- something linked to breath and imagination.
Creation breathing in and breathing out?
LOVE
Renee
28/01/2006 23:07 or 5 + 7 = 12 or 11 + 7 = 18 or 9 and the date is 10 (2 + and 9 and the time 12 and 9 which gives a 9 in both and a 10 and 12, or added the last two, gives then a 9 and a 22. And now we end on 22, the amount of symbols that make up the Hebrew alphabet but is by many numerologists regarded as a power number – this makes me wonder about the contents of this letter as the beginning and end of this letter is numbers that doesn’t pop up for nothing… though I cannot see why?
THE FOLLOWING WAS INSERTED FROM PREVIOUS LETTER – LOR78
25/01/2006 19:19
Dear Lore
Something strange happened since last week Wednesday, 18/01/2006 till today. I went to see a psychologist on 18th. That date has been arranged about 2 weeks before the 18th, and I was wondering about why would it take so long before I get to see her. Her name is Linnea Potgieter. Her add in the Yellow Pages is row 4 the 4th one which gives a 44.
Then, after I made the appointment, I realized but that is the day my period is suppose to start. Anyway, on the 18th, after I saw her I came home and not much later, I got an sms from Ronel and I was still busy thinking about this sms when my friend called me up and told me that Annemarie Potgieter, a friend of ours whom we worked with, has died – she was killed. This was a terrible shock. And after I spoke with my friend on the phone, I got an sms from Carol. Then I realized that the woman I was with earlier the afternoon is also Potgieter. (And Linnea means it has something to do with classification). What also happened, was during the morning of 18/01/2006, the cleaning services were here and I was with the dogs when I felt a very slight earth tremor. And I ran out of the room and asked if they felt it as well and one lady also felt it. But even more peculier, on Thursday, my mom phones me up and ask me what a hypnotherapist is as Liesl, who’s mom is a friend of Linda Tuckers’, want to go and see someone – and guess who Liesl decided on to go to? Yes, coincidentally it is Linnea Potgieter. So Monday was her appointment and she asked my mom if we would go and drop her there after work.
But what is more questionable, is that Annemarie died on the same day as Anton Rupert, and they got buried on the same day, today, 25/01/2006
Again, I am asking myself if all this “strange” events has any meaning? Isn’t it just all events that have no connection at all? You once said to me: everything just is…
So maybe it just appears to be connected – but isn’t everything connected anyway?
Even if I try, I cannot make any sense of anything of the above as it is as you say, everything just is…
LOVE
Renee
25/01/2006 19:33 and 1 + 9 = 1 and 3 + 3 = 6 or 16, the number I associate with you and more specifically, Linda Tucker
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29/01/2006 09:29
Dear Lore
In Today’s newspaper, the Rapport (and coincidentally on page 13) there is another article on Annemarie (please see the above letter on the 25th. This I did not know on the 25th, but her mom and her sister’s name is Lorraine. And the newspaper made a spelling mistake with her moms name making it Lorriane Potgieter. And my mother told me the day when we dropped Liesl at Linnea Potgieter, that she first thought but why is Rene Potgieter (Rene Potgieter is a relative of a very close friend of my mother who is into some form of psychology as well) in Cape Town, what is she doing here? As my mother was confusing Linnea with Rene. Now your name and my name is part of this confusing story – so it seems more are confused than just my mom. I hope you are not. But right after I spoke to Celeste on 18th, I received a sms from my friend Carol, and with the fires that was all around Lions Head and Signal Hill, Carol’s house was in danger and I was in contact with her all the time as to hear if she was ok. So now we have Annemarie, we have me, we have you, we have the psychologist, we have Lions Head and Signal Hill and do not forget that Carol was the one who received those two rainbows (I wrote to you about it in a previous letter). But linked with Lions Head and Signal Hill is also Linda and Marah.
And last night – this morning – I dreamt about a woman telling me to get my pen and stuff together and then I went off to some lesson or workshop on science – it specifically had something to do with science. And the teacher came in and I knew her and she was someone I worked with. And we were gathering data. And she tried to start some mechanism, but her remote did not want to work as she did not seem to know how to work it. Then I took it and started the mechanism. But somewhere in between the science part stopped and she disappeared from the scene a bit. But meanwhile the police figured and my other friend in the police still, Celeste, was figuring. Then something happened and this teacher’s (who was a bit from the scene) car, a VW Beetle, went into ashes with only some parts of the engine remaining and her eyes – but I do not think she was in the vehicle. Then I was with others underneath a huge stand that carries electricity wires, and this one huge wire that was carrying an enormous amount of power, was loose and was a threat of some kind, and I had to fix it but I thought to myself how can I fix this? How do I connect the loose wire again? (But this wire was sort of carrying like in power from Koeberg – when the reactors are ok) But in my dream in my mind’s eye in my dream, I was already holding the cable of wire to fix – but the part where I was holding it, was light blue lighted in my hand of electricity/power.
This let me ask the question what does that cable/wire symbolize? What does it symbolise that is not connected and need fixing, and is so powerful?
LOVE
Renee
29/01/2006 09:36 or 9:9
29/01/2006 17:51 and 17 hours is 5 o’clock this gives us 5 + 5 + 1 = 11 as 2 + 9 = 11. So the whole of the time resemble the day of the date, and if added, they add to 22.
Dear Lore
In my previous letters I wrote to you about Lions Head that was under fire this past week – and next to Lions Head, is Signal Hill. Now what is another word for signal or sign, as a sign can be a symbol also? And this afternoon I had the strangest experience again – this time with the satellite TV. I was watching programmes on Big Cats and Lions in particular and on one stage the program on Big Cats was focussing attention on a leopard that was lying in a tree, and then suddenly the signal went off. A big cat and a signal – how odd (Lions Head and Signal Hill). But then I had to put the decoder off to get the satellite TV going again. And me and my mother could not understand why this happened? But as the TV and satellite were off, my mom and I decided to go and fetch my father’s cell phone as he is sleeping and just in case his cell phone ring, so that it could be with us. And as I picked it up the time on his cell phone was 14:41. (the inverses again…)
As I switched everything on, there was bushes on fire. And I switched channels as I did not want to see how the animals suffered. And I put it on channel 65 (Discovery) and there they had all about fire fighters in America.
But then something strange happened with the satellite TV again as it switched by itself back to channel 66 (National Geographic) and at that moment there were a leopard in a tree and below the tree, 4 male lions they called bachelors. And I said to my mom I wonder what is going on with the satellite TV’s signals? And the 1 leopard and 4 male lions give us a 1 and a 4 or a 4 and a 1 again.
And just the other day I had a conversation with my friend Karina on the phone about the word signal and that Signal Hill may be symbol of symbolism (the word).
I really do not know if one can make anything of these events. But I have so much love for these animals and those Big Cats really have something special to them. And my dog has to be willing to receive all the kisses I want to give those beautiful beings. I so much want to get to the Bushveld again – I miss it so much.
LOVE
Renee
29/01/2006 18:13 …mmm…the 13 again…?
29/01/2006 19:22
Dear Lore
I was watching Fokus on SABC2 and their report on the fire on Lions Head, Signal Hill and Table Mountain, and watching Carte Blanche on Mnet also about these fires and I was wondering about this strange thing we always do – we always want to find someone to blame for everything that happens. But people use words and they blame others and defend themselves with words. And the more it seems they do not get to a point of finding someone to blame – and that seems very confusing – they use more and more words to defend themselves and blame others. But they do not seem to agree who is to blame. As their words are confusing them and they do not realize they are looking for someone to blame and secondly, the symbols used to blame is also causing that they cannot agree on who is the one to blame as those same symbols are defence mechanisms as well. The same system used to accuse also defends – I wonder how far one will get with that? But what amaze me as that they accuse and accuse, still looking for someone to blame – what is it to this concept, the need to blame someone if something happens. And if you look at the word someone it can never reach status of a specific person as it is something in general, someone. Now I am wondering how it all happened so well, that we have the symbolisms/systems in place that the word someone can reach its status it is carrying at this stage, namely, someone must be responsible, but with the uplifting of our words to other levels, it only reach its fullness now as everyone has access to these words’ evolution so that even if they are looking for someone to blame, it stays someone to blame – it does not get to a specific person. So someone is reaching its full potential.
By the way, I also see that in Rapport’s Kaap version, on the front page is the problem with Koeberg Nuclear Power Station and next to it an article on the fires
This letter has no ending
30/01/2006 16:18
Dear Lore
I just had an interesting discussion with my friend Len. He hasn’t seen the program on global dimming and still believes the theory that global warming are been caused by our pollution. That we are trashing the planet deliberately and not feeling bad about it at all and not caring that we are just doing that – trashing the planet.
Then I asked him but what does he think is going to happen after the “shift”? And he said that our friend Karina gave him the answer to that, we are going back to tribal times.
My question is just, I know Karina see that humanity must evolve – does this mean to go back to tribal times we are going to evolve? The mere wording “go back” just says something different from evolution. So maybe Karina is not sure if humanity must evolve or either if humanity must “go back” to something and start evolving again, just in a different way. And my friend Len recons that the people that is now trashing the planet, will be sent to another planet where there are no free will and where they cannot trash anything anymore. Well, I guess I am driving my car, I am doing what everybody else is doing, like eating and drinking and all comes from things that are trashing the planet – so I guess I will go to that planet where there is no free will, as well as I am part of humanity that is now trashing the planet. I don’t really know if there are anybody on this planet that can excuse themselves from not being part of the trashing process as all eat, all drink, all drive their cars. Yes, there are those that fight endless battles to save the planet, but even they cannot excuse themselves as they do need their car and in their instances a lot of times, aeroplanes to get to go and fight pollution and trashing the planet. So whom of us, if Len and Karina is correct, is going to stay behind to begin the human evolution, I do not know.
And this makes me wonder about what is going to happen should there be something like a polar flip. Many spiritual people are talking about the shift, but by now I have heard so many versions – that the “shift” is more confusing to me now, than a lot of other things. I realized today that what I am experiencing, is not the same what my friends are believing anymore. I am getting confused about a lot of things, but their point of view, which was interesting, just does not stand its ground for me so much anymore. Maybe I am too busy with other stuff like the symbolism thing. Like the catch 22 situations arising that I feel is so brilliant. But it seems I am the only one seeing these situations and now I start questioning myself. I try to explain to my friend Katrina, but she gets stuck that things happen so that after something happened and humanity was not dealing with that situation effectively, they get the lesson from that to improve themselves. Like with everybody wanting to find someone to blame for the fire on Table Mountain, now the fire department will improve and the council will and the mayor as well – that’s the lesson from the fire. It is all well that they are all now going to upgrade and if the same situation arise again, they will be equipped, but that was not what I saw from that situation – and I wrote to you yesterday about that topic and what I made of it. Maybe that is the lesson for me in speaking to her and hear what she has to say, that everything is about lessons? Lessons and then upgrading to higher levels. What that higher levels is I do not know – maybe that is how humanity is going to evolve – upgrading the fire department and the council and the mayor that should we have a fire in cape town ever again, all these departments will be on a higher level to deal with the same situation again, this time, perfectly with nobody complaining about a thing. I hope they upgrade the public as well to not either critisize or on the other end of duality agree that the fire department is upgraded enough. We are in duality and people do seem to have opinions on whether something is done well, and on the other end, not done well. Even with this fire, there were people that thought that everything - for the type of fire they were dealing with – went actually very well. And I am complaining now it seems about my friends. I think it is my ego that want them to see what I see and what I see I cannot get through to anybody.
And I am wondering about these letters to you, if they are worth anything. I do not even know if you are reading them – why am I writing them, for what reason?
Love
Renee
30/01/2006 16:49 and 4 + 9 = 13 and day and month is 31.
My Day With FISH AND BREAD. May 21, 2008
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Lore62(1) .
19/10/2005 15:20 or 15(2)(0) on 19th or the 1 and 9 combination, beginnings and ends.
Dear Lor
This is the first time I got to write the past few days up – with u. It all started on the 17th , of this month, or Monday just 2 days ago. I had an appointment with Carol, she told me she does Christian meditation and this really sound interesting to me. So I phoned her up and told her I am really interested in what the people do in Christian meditation as her meditation groups every second week on a Thursday, has turned out to be a huge thing for me. So last week we made the appointment for Monday the 17th of October 2005, as that was the only time she had to just introduce me on a one to one basis of what the group of Christian meditation is up to. The appointment was at 11:00am. Eventually it turned out to be a meditation you do without thoughts, or only having the awareness of your body – which gets close to the Buddhist meditation of meditating without any thoughts going through your mind. But the more she kept telling me about what the contemplation meditation is all about, I realized but that was what I was doing for nearly 2-3 weeks about up until about a week ago. I did it on my bed and only thought I was having peace and quiet and feeling good, only aware of the feeling good in my body, lying on my bed. Now I do not know if I was prepared to do it only to know the experience or to recognize the experience only for the sake of knowing up front? But anyway, we also did a little meditation – I must rather not call it a little meditation as something I have no words for, happened during that meditation. I could feel my head, or some sensation in my head and then centering in my chest as heat. The heat really got intense, to such extent that Carol also picked it up and we stopped the meditation. We do not know what that heat is or what it is for. But at about 16:00, when I was back home again and feeling bored tremendously, my head told me to phone up Kenny, the guy from Avis. He asked me if I could be there by 17:00 as there is a trip to Port Elizabeth. 10 cars need to be taken there. Citi Golfs. I did not know what to answer and things happened on such short notice that I knew I will have to make the decision myself as to go or not to go as there is no time to wait for clear signs and synchronicities to show me the way. My heart felt like going, but I had fear of the coming back process, as I then would have to travel with all the other drivers in one microbus vehicle. And I thought – what if I picked up on all their pain and stuff like what happened at that meeting when I were delivering summonses? Pick up 10 people’s pain and suffering lying in their unconscious and then come back home with all that clutter and going through another “lightning” process of getting everything out again???? But inspite of this fear, I decided to go. As we were travelling, each in our own(Avis) cars, I was even more doubtful about my decision to go on the trip, as I had such a “painful” feeling in my chest and I were not even in one microbus with the other guys yet!!! I tried to cry, but this made the feeling in my chest nearly impossible to deal with, that painful it got when I tried to cry it out. Eventually I settled down, with this feeling in my chest. What was amazing on our way to Port Elizabeth, was between George and Tsitsikama, there were a mountain on fire. I tried to take pictures of it as I have never before seen such a sight. But my Cell phone camera could not zoom in close enough to take a good picture of this amazing view.
As we made our first stop, I realized these guys that are drivers are even worse than I could have imagined. There were 4 black guys and the rest were coloured guys, but they have got only one thing on their minds. And they have conversation with each and every black woman that came their way at the places we stopped. And when she leaves, the conversation is worse language than the “Son” (newspaper), can think of. But as I started getting a bit back to focus from a different perspective than one of fear, I realized that the numbers on the speedometer and the clock were telling me I am where I am suppose to be. All the guys I travelled with are Muslim and all they have on their mind is one thing, but I am not scared of them, I am had fear of how I were going to deal with their pain – if I picked up on that!!! And I witnessed the time 0:00 as on that moment, going from the 17th (and what does the 1 and 7 symbolize?) to the 18th , my attention was focused on it. And a lot of combinations, especially on the speedometer, consisted of the combination of 1 and 7. The 1 and 7’s are only related to 44, but even the real thing, the 44’s, made a few appearances.
At daybreak, we entered Port Elizabeth. As we started the night out, I prayed that something could happen for me not to travel with these guys, but eventually my prayers were answered in a different way, as I had to travel in the microbus. But I managed to get a good seat, one by myself, as the passenger in the front. The guys in the back were 4, 4 on a seat and there are 2 back seats, so we were 44 at the back, and (2) in the front. Then, as we all were in the bus, these guys decided they were hungry and as none of them had money, they decided to go to family of the one guy, in the lokasie, to have breakfast. They managed to get a few bucks from our boss, and they bought fish and bread. Two cans of fish and several breads. From this, in the lokasie, they made “bunny chows”. As they were eating this woman, who’s place we were at, gave me coffee, without milk. And as I was sitting drinking this, I noticed a picture she have on the wall: Leonardo da Vinci’s “Last Supper”. And only later on did it struck me but why does a Muslim have that picture in their house? How odd. Then the journey back to Cape Town started eventually. And as it started, we were still in the township, the first thing came up that made these guys astonished. There were some animals in the road and I nearly begged this guy driving not to kill it. The guys were very interested to know if I am married and very confused when I told them I am not married but the love in my life is a dog. I even showed them pictures of my dog. They soon enough realized that I am very fond of animals. What made everything bearable at that stage, was the scenery and it seems we passed all those “high” bridges (as there are a few amazing high bridges on the road we travelled, the N2) from both sides – once as we were going to Port Elizabeth during the night, and once as we were coming back to Cape Town, during the daylight. There are about three or four of these high bridges – and isn’t 3 a confirmation number of some sort?
All sorts of thoughts went through my head. At one point I felt like started crying when I looked at my dog’s pictures – I love him so much and with all these strange events and the tiring that the travelling, on such short notice right through the night caused, plus all these strange people with me, I missed my dog tremendously. But this gave me a good thought, a positive thought and suddenly that feeling that settled in my chest at Carol’s place the previous day, relaxed and only gave off heat. This gave me even more of a loving feeling and to such extent that I felt so good towards these guys I was travelling with. I saw them in their personalities and doesn’t matter what is coming from their mouths, they have such good hearts!!! And I thought to myself how great these guys actually are and I had so much respect and love for them. And then all sorts of thoughts followed.
We saw three eagles later on, when I realized that the “last supper” picture and the fact that these guys claimed to be all Muslim (Christianity vs Muslim) and the fact that they were eating fish and bread all had a meaning. So did the fact that we crossed those bridges. And again I realized how symbolism playes such a role in our lives, we just don’t always notice it.
We arrived back late, at about 15:45 and we were just in time for my father to pick me up, us fetching my mother and him delivering both of us at home to go to an appointment he had – the timing were excellent. I had a shower and my dog was very glad to see me. And later on, as my mother was not feeling well, me and my dad fixed the kitchen and then I went to bed. And this was my journey to PE, my first job at Avis I did driving a vehicle to its place where it belong.
The next morning as I woke up, I was aware of the incident where I was travelling from Kalahari to you and all the millions of birds in the road and me at some point having to close my eyes and just drive, as these birds just did not want to get out of the road. And I cried about it, but then I realized something: with a part that I read in Linda Tuckers book about the exchange of souls and the Holy Communion that was put in place. The Bushmen told that if they came across a dead lion, they eat from its flesh as it is an exchange of souls if you eat from that dead lion. And according to the Bible Jesus before His death told the disciples to eat and drink (as symbolism of his body) and what did Jesus symbolize? That Jesus was God’s son but mostly he was symbolizing God on the planet or for human beings. So if He symbolize God and a person eat something as symbolizing Jesus’ body and blood, the symbolism goes further into that person eating and drinking symbolically of God, exchanging souls with God. This made me aware of how much symbolism can have an impact. By this I am not constituting that Holy Communion is “right” or “wrong”, I am merely showing what the symbolism behind the implementation of it was – as God is already Everywhere !!! What I do not understand, is why Passover and Holy Communion, of two religions have to be done over and over – yes, to remind us probably, but is there a symbolism attached to why it has to be repeated like for instance in Christianity, so many times a year? And I have been wondering why I have brought in the Passover, but I was on my bed for a few minutes now and realized there might be symbolism between the lamb of Passover, that was slaughtered in order for later stuff in the Divine Plan to take place – not necessarily meaning that the Lamb of God or the symbolic Man representing God on the Planet, was “slaughtered” to save of sins because “slaughtered” is a too harsh word for the reason why Jesus died. Yes the lamb’s blood saved (in Exodus), but so does the Lambs’ by way of symbolism in Exchanging souls with God (like the bushman shaman eating from the lion’s flesh and blood to exchange soul with the lion). And I still think there is symbolism short that needs to be explained.
And on this night, the night of 19/10/2005 I received the Lotto Quick pick ticket at time 17:59:11 or 17:14:11 and this gives a 17 combination, a 14 combination and a power number: 11. And on this ticket rows 1, 2, 4 all had the same last number or 6th number, 44. The third row had 4 9’s, a 22 or 4 and an 8 (number of eternity), which gives, if 4 and 8 are added, (1)(2). The first row started with 14 and the last row with 13 and the inside rows with a 9 and 3 or another (1)(2). But the only row that did not end on 44, namely row 3, ended on 45 (9). And if you look at the time the 44 ’s related to the hour, the first number in row 1 related to the 1 and 4 combination and the odd row which did not end on 44, ended on (9) which are for me on some instances, related to 11 – 1 tower and 1 tower or 11 or 2 towers. And the following I have no explanation for yet – but my head tells me I must write it as well: If you add the time, 17 + (5+9=14 or 5)5 + 2(and 1 + 1 = 2) = 24.
It seems this story is not finished yet, as it did not receive an end time…
04/11/2005 17:17
And the first thing that is for me linked to my above experience happened yesterday and was coming from the day before yesterday. Last night on SABC2 news, they showed a guy who said he lost 4 pairs of African Grey Parrots (4 male and 4 female or 44 ) in the fires in and around the PE region. These Parrots had to give up their lives(!!)(!!).
And look at the time, 17:17, and this time was brought under my attention as I was about to start writing by receiving a missed call from a number in Jhb – (011) 315 6458.
But I do not think all of the stuff related to the experience of going off on a journey to PE, is all going to be revealed in this letter, Lor62. Strangely enough, my attention is been focused on the new add of the watch Seiko, the date they use on this watch is 26th – or just the inverse of 62 and related to so much else. And a lot of those relations will probably only be discussed when I have finished 9 weeks after this week where this week is the first one. And coincidentally it is week 44 ! And how related is the combination of 1 and 7 with the number 44 ? But I am making notes in my lion book.
LOVE
Renee
04/11/2005 17:24 and 24 was the day of a new beginning, but as I said it will be written to you later…
The Beginning of the search for the paradoxes. May 21, 2008
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Lore61 .
13/10/2005 20:57 and 5 + 7 = 12 which in time gives us 2012. And my head told me that this letter will be Lor61!
Dear Lor
We had meditation tonight at Carol again. Her theme tonight was fire. But there were a whole lot of new people pitching tonight. There was one girl that was there the previous time and she brought a friend along and the two of them made the evening for me very interesting – besides from the “vision” I received. Tonight I did not went off into my own “vision”, I was sitting there and thinking I am getting nothing when I started realizing but I must follow, for a change, the guided meditation. Well, I did follow it, sort of…
We started off on a huge mountain. And we had to take wood and make a fire. In my mind my head gave me the wood, but it was such a pile, it went straight into the cosmos until who knows where to. And I tried to make a fire, but the wood was so overwhelming that the fire was stalled before it could even began. Then I turned around and behind me was a man in light. It was sort of an oval light around this man – but it was the same man that gave me the sword at the first night’s meditation at Carols’. Then suddenly, I had the moon in my hands and there was an hourglass on the ground and I put the moon on the hourglass.
Then the stack of wood caught my attention again and a UFO came by and beamed a stroke of light onto this stack and it turned into very complicated structured wooden squared block pile – where each piece of the squared blocks had a pattern that fitted into the rest of the pile that made it up into the cosmos. And I took one out and it was an L that was upside down. Then I took another one out and it had two “legs” as like in when you look at the upside down L, the horizontal short side is one “leg”. And the third one I pulled out had three “legs”. All the legs was pointing from the vertical axis to the left. But if you view it, the vertical stick with the 2 “legs” could also be an “F” and the one with the three “legs” could also be resembling an “E”. So that gives us “L F E”. And looking at their positions in the English alphabet, the L is 12 or 3 and the F is 6 and the E is 5 or 365, the number of days of the year. And then Carol said we must think of a song, but even before she said that, the song of ABBA or 1221, came up – Happy New Year.
Then I heard Carol say we must sacrifice something, but for me nothing happened. Instead, the man in the light, had a picture that was his size of Ra, the Sun God. Then this picture turned into a mirror and the mirror cracked and in the cracks, was standing me – in my white vest T-shirt and my blue jeans.
Then Carol brought us back into the room and we had a discussion of the meditation. What for me was pretty amazing is that it seems the others had huge fires – I had none??? But I guess I must not try and fiddle it out or try to, it will probably be shown to me in a different way, why!
But I’ll speak to you again – it seems my head reckon the meditation was so pretty amazing that it is good enough to make up the special spot of Lor61 and did I find you on ad 61 or what? And if you view a 61 the 6 is a number of fire and the one a number of air – and did my wood for the fire(6) reached up into the air(1)??? It was very special, but I have a good feel about the people I met tonight as well…
LOVE
RENEE
13/10/2005 21:25 or (9)2005
SHAMANISM?
13/10/2005 22:55
Dear Lor
I also was now thinking of the Lotto ticket my father bought me yesterday night. The time was 19:09:10 or 19 and (0)9:1(0). And this 91 is after this afternoon, very significant for me. I realized this afternoon, as I was bothered with the little sample I have of what the Ancient Egyptians thought Ra to look like – and this is standing next to my lioness in action – that what Ra symbolize for me. The R is the 18th or 9 letter of the English alphabet and “A” is the first or 1, which gives us 91. And look at the time of the Lotto ticket…
But what I actually want to get at is the following: As this month is 10th and it is 2005 or a 1, 2, 5 and 000 it gives a 1 and 7 and 000 or 17. And for me the 17 is connected to the number 44 . So on this Lotto ticket, the 3rd row the 6th number or 36 is the number 44 . And the only 36 on this ticket is in row 4, the 4th number or 44 . This is actually the most amazing that can be made out of this lotto ticket – although there are more than just this, there are lots! But I think I will bore you with each and every one – it seems possibilities are endless tonight, do not know if I will be able to go to sleep.
But you were in more than just the fact that the letter about the meditation is written to you on spot Lor61 represented at the meditation tonight. As we were meditating, this one girl which I suspect is going to play a part in my life ahead still, reminded me of your daughter, the looks. And she’s the one who came to me afterwards and asked me if I have ever read a book about shamanism. I was surprised at her observation – as to where it comes from, as she looks so young still.
Anyway,…
LOVE
RENEE
13/10/2005 23:11 or 11:11. Are you guys still having nuts parties with entrance fees like R11,11? I never asked you before, but what did you guys do at that “nutty” party? I imagined you all sitting on blankets and having picnic and doing what? What do a lot of spiritual people do together when it is blue moon? Seems I have a lot to learn still. And did I have a moon in my meditation on an hourglass and the time ending this letter is 11:11??? Just asking…
IS THINKING ABOUT THOUGHTS OF THE PAST IN THE PAST?
15/10/2005 15:34 turning 35
Dear Lor
I am so bothered with this complicated ideas I cannot get a hold on. Like, if I am looking at the chair in front of me, am I viewing the “past” or am I viewing the “now” as light has to travel a certain distance and takes a certain time to travel that distance? To put it a better way: If tonight I am standing outside and there are no clouds in the sky and I am viewing the stars – I will be viewing something that is of the “past”. Why? Because the light from the stars take some time to travel the distance for us to be aware of that light, for that light to enter the retina of my eye or of a telescope for that matter. So, what does that leave me with? Am I in the now, but only on very micro scale viewing the “past”??? As I said before, light take some time to travel a certain distance. But what is the “now” then? Is the “now” then actually the vision of the past? According to science, sound also takes a certain time to travel a certain distance. Then the same is applicable to this, to sound. As does that mean when I am hearing something, it is actually something of the past? If I am sitting and thinking – I have explained to you some time ago that I sometimes experience my thoughts, or some of it, to actually coming from outside me. Does this then also mean that thoughts take a certain time to travel a certain distance? And what complications does this have? This leaves me with the third thing that I am experiencing as what I would call the “now”, but which is actually, because of the time things take to travel a certain distance, something of the “past”. Is there a “now” at all??? Could it be that the experience of this “past” stuff – putting it all together – could make up the “now”??? But this will mean that the “now” consist of the experience of “past” stuff??? If this is true, will I then be, if I am thinking about events of the past, thinking about thoughts of the past in the past???
I don’t know, I think I am confusing myself – but even before it was written, the idea in my head was something of the past, let alone being something of the past before I even experienced it.
LOVE
RENEE
15/10/2005 15:51 How accurate is this time, or is it only some numbers with some symbolism to it???
Ns. 16/10/2005 or 161 and (7) 16:47 or 4:47 or 44 and (7) but 16:47 also 16(1)(1)
Looking at the above question now from the back angle, we get the question: If we disregard the above conclusion by saying that we are experiencing a “now” – or that we are not in the “now” experiencing something of the “past”, then this means we are on the micro level disregarding the fact that light and sound take a certain time to reach a certain distance, and what is true on micro scale must then also apply to the macro scale – or that light from a certain star does not take a couple of million of years to reach the earth???? Or then, our other option is to view that we are not experiencing a “now”, but a “past”????
Is this a catch 22 situation (??)(??)
LOVE
RENEE
16/10/2005 16:56 or 16(1)(1).
AM I CONFUSED?
16/10/2005 11:18 and 1 + 8 = 9 which gives 11(9)
Dear Lor
My mother were talking about reality a while ago, and this upset me though I did not realize why initially. Then I went to lie down for a while and realized it is all these paradoxes about what we call reality!
The first one that comes up is what Karl Popper said, and this comes from the Burger of Yesterday, 15/10/2005, that what keeps science going is the fact that you get those for a concept and those against a concept – but don’t they realize that both are right as both exist? Then, if I look at the whole thing about atoms; If I am in relation to the atom as I am in relation to the earth, then the distance between the atom I am on and the other atoms, will be like when I am in relation to the earth and witnessing the stars. That will be the distance between where I am on the atom and other atoms. But where does this leaves us – with a question as to how is density, how are us, possible? Is this view of atoms then a paradox again as to our existence? Then the paradox of the “now” which I discussed yesterday in my previous letter. Where it seems that even what we experience as a in the moment, is paradoxic! Then there is the paradox of the occurance that space has no colour, but that the Universe has the appearance of “dark”? What is all this telling me??? All these paradoxes, but still, we are dense, we have an experience of a “in the moment” and we do want something to be either red or blue – we cannot accept both
This makes me think again of the Greek philosopher who wrote about the paradox that we are moving. He said that if you want to move a certain distance, you first have to complete half the distance. To complete half the distance, you first have to complete half of that distance and to complete this you need to complete half of that distance and so it goes on into eternity until you never start moving – but we are all seemingly moving around.
This makes me wonder if I am confused???
LOVE
RENEE
16/10/2005 11:32 or (1)(1)5 or 11(5) and I don’t have a clue what I am doing…
ns. 16/10/2005 13:05 or 13(5) – seems the above was 11(5) and this one is 13(5), as I do not know if this means something on a certain level (5)???
DOES SCIENCE REALIZE ITS CONFUSION?
Dear Lor
What I actually have been wondering about since I wrote the previous letter, is why there is paradoxes to every theory? I wonder if it could have something to do with a word that was invented called “sense”, as the opposite of “sense” is “no sense” – and have I left out an “n”???? How complicated can our reality then be? As certain things gets so confusing, all because another word/concept was invented??? How will science ever be able to put things together as the mere existence of certain words/concepts are confusing them without them realizing or having the awareness, of the existence of that confusion???
LOVE
RENEE
16/10/2005 13:13 – need I say more?
WHEN WILL WE BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND THE WORD "HAPPY"?
16/10/2005 19:39 or 19(1)(2) where the (1), for a first time, and the (2), for a second time.
Dear Lor
The words of “The Law of Opposites”, keep coming into my head, as my head told me that if I say I cannot do something, in time, I will be proved that I can do that thing.
And I have been wondering about that meditation I got on Thursday, the 13th , where I was led to the amount of days in a year – 365 days. This made me wonder if all the stuff I have been writing about in Lor61, has got something to do with days and as days make out a part of what we consider in the concept of time? But looking at that meditation, there has been a “Happy” new year. I wonder when are we going to be learning about that “Happy”???
LOVE
RENEE
16/10/2005 19:46 or 19(1) it seems there is a (1) or first in the end of this letter, but the (2) is only present in the beginning time…
16/10/2005 20:38 or 8(1)(1) and 8 or eternity in the (1) first time and the first of the (1) second one
Dear Lor
I just want to share with you something totally different that just happened now. I was lying in my room and thinking all by myself, sort of excluding my head, about possibilities of what I should do to earn a living. Then, out of the blue, my cell phone, which is not in use and which I only used to send sms’e with, went off with an sms.
It came from someone on the time 20, or 8pm thus giving 8:31:25 or (8)31 and the 25 connected to the date’s year, 2(0)(0)5. This gives us the level of eternity and the by now familiar combination 3 and 1. The number of this “person” I had to phone was:
072 3663 817 – and 7+2=9 and 3+6=9=6+3 and 9+8=17 which leaves us with (0)(9)17 17! And by now the combination of 17 is also familiar as it relates to “I will be ever greatly revealed”. After I phoned the number I realized but someone else is trying to get my attention…”Please call me”. It also advertise a long joke.
Well, let me end this letter on the note of a joke…
LOVE
RENEE
16/10/2005 20:49 or 20:13 and the beginning time was 20:11 and the end time is 20:13, so it seems the one not mentioned – which in some instances may be the important one as 11 figures and so does 13 – is 20:12 or 8(1)(2) This means that the first (1) is mentioned, but the second on the level of 8 – eternity – is not mentioned in the end time, a second time.
16/10/2005 21:11 or (9)11
Dear Lor
Just something else that was also very amazing today. Me and my mother were driving on the Chapman’s Peak Toll road from Noordhoek to Houtbay. The ticket we received conveyed the following details.
Time: 15:06:51
Transaction Number: 195529 and doesn’t 2+9 add up to 11…
Amount: 22
The amount, combined with the transaction number resemble 4(22)/11/1955
And looking at the time, I recall a night when you were doing some healing work on me when we started talking about 15. And I remember so well how you asked me if 1+5=6, if it is not a fire number? And my reply was that the combination of 15 (or then for that matter 51 as both are in the time) are both air numbers…
LOVE
RENEE
16/10/2005 21:18 or 9:9.
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