The Dark only Appears to be Dark. July 5, 2008
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24/01/2006 16:43 probably turning 44. And the amount outstanding on my dog’s account at the vet is R444.
This is Lor78
Dear Lore
I just read in the newspaper now about a minister who is with the Afrikaans AP Church and who is suing another woman because his wife has left him. Apparently this other woman has also now put in a claim against him. I am wondering how far is suing one another going to bring us. I remember while I was still in the police how people threatened to sue us – for money, but maybe sueing only appears to be not helpful to create a better society as it seems there is a lot more to appearances than we think.
And I spoke to Esteban this morning and I told him about a friend of mine who was murdered and Esteban said: It is time for Jesus to come back and clean up this mess! Well, I hope for Jesus’ sake that He would be able to get to all these fine, not really noticeable little messes we are sitting with as well – as they may only appear as being a mess. Like the one above where we use words, like I described to you in previous letters, and interpretations of words to do what? It is just strange that the above situation involves a minister in an Afrikaans church. Remember, long time ago I told you about the tarentale and the two who was stuck on the church grounds? It seems it is even going wider in this situation as the guy is a minister and he is using the words in a law perspective – this should be interesting!
(Seems I forgot to put and end to this letter…)
25/01/2006 13:40 or 04:40 or (0)44(0) or the inverses again
Dear Lore
My head thinks that me and Len and Karina are very amusing. As we are totally in the dark about what is going on. Well, I am glad we are amusing to someone else, I love amusing things. But isn’t it strange that one use the word “dark” in the sense of where one does not know what is going on? And what came up now while I was lying one the bed thinking about this, is that the Bible says that Jesus was not overcome by darkness – could one now interpret it also in this way, that Jesus actually got to a point where he understood something (maybe the situation he was in) and a light bulb went on? Understanding his task? See, how many interpretations can be made of single events or words in the Bible!
Speaking of Jesus, the other night you brought a candle again into my inner world and then that candle was put right underneath the cross – the point in the Southern Cross stars that is the point of reference for the direction in our night sky, and for that direction you need Alpha and Beta Centauri as well (this gives us a 1 and 2 or 12 or 21 also) – and this little candle set the cross on fire. And whenever I look at it in my inner world, I can see it still burning. (It was on the 22/01/2006 and started writing at 19:21 and ended 19:22.)
So a cross is on fire – and if this has any meaning, I do not have a clue! Maybe that is why my head finds it funny that me and Len and Karina are all in the dark. But keeps me in the dark, and full of questions is that the concept of fire is constantly referred to in the past few days. What is it about fire that I am not seeing? (If it is possible to be so in the dark that not even a fire – light – can be seen??) I know I burn these letters to you on a CD, but in the same sentence of hell, my father is mentioned?
I don’t know, everything is so confusing…
LOVE
Renee
25/01/2006 14:29 It seems there is nothing to do about the time or the date except maybe that it was last year this time that I paid in the first amount for Marah, the White Lion that Linda Tucker is taking care of. The second payment was done tomorrow exactly also one year ago.
25/01/2006 15:00 and do you remember the conversation about these two numbers, 1 and 5? And we had this conversation when me and Len came from Linda Tucker. And exactly one year ago…as I explained at the top.
Dear Lore
I feel stuck. And it seems I must try and avoid thinking of the routine thing – it makes me depressed. And I am wondering, they always say that change is as good as a holyday, maybe the world needs change? But I wonder if we are not constantly changing anyway? Maybe I need a holli jolli holliday?
LOVE
Renee
25/01/2006 15:05 or 6 (1+5) and 5 – and if we view today’s date, we have a 25 and 2006, the 2 days I paid in Marah’s money, but if you take that 2 (of the days) out of the 25 and 26 of today, you are left with the time or a 6 and a 5 and just the other way around of 25 and 26 or without, 5 and 6.
Ns…meanwhile I forget the illusion of everything which only have an appearance of reality. (This is from another letter that starts at 25/01/2006 18:25 and this letter ends at 25/01/2006 18:41 and it is a letter to God, no 159)
25/01/2006 19:19
Dear Lore
Something strange happened since last week Wednesday, 18/01/2006 till today. I went to see a psychologist on 18th. That date has been arranged about 2 weeks before the 18th, and I was wondering about why would it take so long before I get to see her. Her name is Linnea Potgieter. Her add in the Yellow Pages is row 4 the 4th one which gives a 44.
Then, after I made the appointment, I realized but that is the day my period is suppose to start. Anyway, on the 18th, after I saw her I came home and not much later, I got an sms from Ronel and I was still busy thinking about this sms when my friend called me up and told me that Annemarie Potgieter, a friend of ours whom we worked with, has died – she was killed. This was a terrible shock. And after I spoke with my friend on the phone, I got an sms from Carol. Then I realized that the woman I was with earlier the afternoon is also Potgieter. (And Linnea means it has something to do with classification). What also happened, was during the morning of 18/01/2006, the cleaning services were here and I was with the dogs when I felt a very slight earth tremor. And I ran out of the room and asked if they felt it as well and one lady also felt it. But even more peculier, on Thursday, my mom phones me up and ask me what a hypnotherapist is as Liesl, who’s mom is a friend of Linda Tuckers’, want to go and see someone – and guess who Liesl decided on to go to? Yes, coincidentally it is Linnea Potgieter. So Monday was her appointment and she asked my mom if we would go and drop her there after work.
But what is more questionable, is that Annemarie died on the same day as Anton Rupert, and they got buried on the same day, today, 25/01/2006.
Again, I am asking myself if all this “strange” events has any meaning? Isn’t it just all events that have no connection at all? You once said to me: everything just is…
So maybe it just appears to be connected – but isn’t everything connected anyway?
Even if I try, I cannot make any sense of anything of the above as it is as you say, everything just is…
LOVE
Renee
25/01/2006 19:33 and 1 + 9 = 1 and 3 + 3 = 6 or 16, the number I associate with you and more specifically, Linda Tucker.
26/01/2006 15:43 and 4 times 3 equal 12, which gives 312 again (What is it with this connection with Marion?)
Dear Lore
I am ill of worries about you, where you are. And then this link with Marion that comes up all the time. What is it all about?
Anyway, I just want to share a dream with you again, and it seems I give the dreams more reality when I write about them. I dreamt I was at some college or something, some school and Len was a teacher there. But I was busy with some mind twister (do you still remember these “Kubus” blocks you got that you had to get all the colours on their own side?) and this twister was something that had also stickers on with a colour, but it also had numbers. But there were two and they were linked with a plastic arm that was made of the same cream coloured plastic, these mind twisters were made of.
Then I was on the top floor of a building and there were a huge opening, which were suppose to have a window, but it did not – and because it was so high, I was scared Charlie was going to fall out as he was with me, but I realized it cannot happen as I had him on a leash. But we passed this hole without one of us falling out.
Just thought I’d share this with you – hoping to feel better soon…
LOVE
Renee
26/01/2006 or 26/01/26 with (0)(0) taken out. 15:51 – and this was the end time of the letter that Linnea, the psychologist also chose (I asked her that day on 18th to just open the bind letters on any page and she opened it on the last part of the letter on 15/10/2005 and the end time of that letter, where she opened it on, was 15:51) And this letter is also Lor78 and 7 + 8 = 15.
26/01/2006 or 26/01/26 with (0)(0) a bit on the side. 21:21
Dear Lore
I do not understand what is going on – especially with the above time being 9:9. Maybe this is important – I don’t know.
I have this trouble at the end of the day. I thought it has got something to do with the dusk theme, but my head just showed me that if it is dusk for me, it is dawn for someone else and vice versa. So why should especially dusk be a problem for me, as for someone else it is dawn. What am I actually saying here?
Anyway, maybe I’ll understand later..
LOVE
Renee
26/01/26 (0)(0) 21:30 or 03:30 or 9 + 3 = 12, the inverse of 21
27/01/2006 00:56 and date starts with (2+7) or 9 and time ends with (5+6) or 11.
Dear Lore
I cannot sleep. Even though I took a lot of tablets already. Sometimes it seems tablets have got no effect on me – no matter how strong.
Lore, I do not know if you read this letter, or shall I rather say these letters, but I feel I have seen a GREATNESS again tonight. I was watching a program on TV2, which my mother focused my attention on and said I should tape it, and was astounded. What it came down to was that there is a thing they call global dimming. The paradox of global warming, and it seemed this global dimming protected us in a great way from global warming! But the problems about this aspects do not seem to be in the nearby future. But another paradox – and a huge one which was never detected by the scientific crowd, except for a few scientist on strategic places. And this tells all that we do not have to fear what lies ahead, as if these scientists were put in strategic places and if I also take for instance the money thing and the levels it function on and how certain people and structures were put in place for that, I do think the process will be made as easy as possible for us in this 3D reality.
The other night I had the feeling as if there was shuffling around been going on and certain beings been put in strategic positions – do you think we must expect huge change? Well, I just want to know if you and Marion are ok at this stage…
Yes, and I was feeling so heavy on the 26th, as if I cannot even lift myself off the couch, and at night time I should discover the huge fire on Table Mountain – and when I spoke to a friend in the city she said to me that at that stage the fire was all around Lions Head. I wonder if this is linked to Marah in some way, as my friend Karina wanted me to watch the news to see about Koeberg that is only 50% active and the rest of Cape towns power is coming from Mpumalanga, where Marah and Maria and Linda is. Now as you know is Koeberg nuclear power. But they have had problems with the two reactors now for quite a while.
Anyway, I will speak to you again..
LOVE
Renee
27/01/2006 01:10 turning 01:11am
27/01/2006 and 2 + 7 = 9 and 1 + 2 + 6 = 9. And time is 12:07 turning 8 and isn’t this letter Lor78?
Dear Lore
It seems I was on the wrong track by saying that the sun is ecliptic moving around something as well – and for that matter our galaxy. I had no right to say that, in fact, my head showed me now that for one:
- What is the sun and other stars then circling around – what is in the center?
- I just remembered our Science professor at University in the physics class telling us that with certain photography the scientists were experimenting, it looks like all the stars are moving away from one another.
But now my question is just, if that is true, that all the stars are moving away from one another – and I still remember he brought a balloon to the class to explain this, as he put dots on the balloon and then put air in the balloon and all the dots were moving away from one another – why are our star signs like Orion and Scorpio and Canis Major and Canis Minor still in tact for us to see them. And they still seem in shape to me.
So it just seems, I have no clue what I am talking about and what I was talking about. But what I am wondering, is if the scientists know, really know? As for how long has scientists ignored the guy who discovered the global dimming – as they thought what they were believing to be global warming was more logical? And at the time they believed global warming to be a danger, that was what made sense – when this other guy came with proof that interfered with their logic, they disregard him as his statistics did not fit in with their beliefs. And with only this one example, I wonder how much have been taken for granted because of beliefs the science community have that makes sense to them, that is in actual fact something else?
Then another question that my head showed me this morning is that my attention was focused on something I once read about one of the great scientists who claimed that what was going on on our planet and solar system, is on small scale what is Universal? And just the mere question I had about the sun not having the same perception than we have about time, makes me now question that as well. As this is only in our solar system that we have classified the sun under our conditions – meanwhile it might not be like that at all (and the example of this is the time concept I discussed in another letter)? From the sun’s point of view, it might be something totally different? But I wonder how many things have a certain appearance to us, to science, that is like the Universe, it only appears to be dark, if you take a piece of it, what colour is it, has it got any colour at all? But for us the Universe appears to be dark…
Anyway, last night was an eye opener that with all our “pollution”, it actually saved us. Health experts tells us this is healthy and that not, but I think of the pill thing and remember an article I read in the “De Kat” – where a doctor prescribed a new medicine for some guy who was in a coma. Then this guy came out of his coma and later on went back into his coma. Eventually they discovered that this medicine that was given for something totally different, was helping this guy and activating the part of his brain where he was in a coma, to get out of it. And the moment the pill was worked out, the guy will fall into his coma again. So maybe there is something good in something that many will see as bad – I for one has now learnt that lesson.
But what fascinates me is that all this stuff that is happening, all these questions I am asking, all keeps us in 3D and on the planet. But if I look at all the underlying stuff that clashes and do not make sense, leaving this world or 3D reality with the only thing that makes sense is nothing, though we think all makes sense, meanwhile it is all one big illusion. But I guess being in this 3D can be nice – especially if all these clashes/paradoxes are shown and I realize how mysterious God really is.
My question is just – how can we claim that we can know God, even if it is from the Bible? The Christians for instance makes a study (like scientists) of interpreting the Bible, and how many obvious appearances they make from words, or what these scientists of the Bible think those appearances are, is actually fooling them as it is exactly what it says, it has a certain appearance? How can we know what lies behind the appearance?
I was just lying and thinking now, for us at this stage we see ourselves that we have trashed the planet, because of global warming. But with the discovery of global dimming my question is just – were we not led to what we thought was trashing the planet, in order to give us a longer time of existence, like that all the industries and all the pollution causes have been institutionalised because of a Plan, a Divine Plan. As if it was not for (what we think) us trashing the planet, we would have been gone long time ago with global warming – and this is very literally a view in 3D reality. So what seemed to have been a bad thing that mankind did, was actually a good thing? That is if you view that 3D reality and being in it is a good thing. So something had a bad appearance, but underlying it seems to have been a good thing. But I do not know if you remember the letter about catch 22 situations, as it seems scientists do not really know if we must now carry on with the pollution (seeing it is saving us from global warming in a way) or what should we do about it? This is such an excellent phenomenon!
I just feel this appearance thing is of some importance…because even what we might think is a 3D reality, might be an appearance.
LOVE
Renee
27/01/2006 12:49 or 313 and the date as shown in the beginning is 9 and 9.
27/01/2006 14:41
Dear Lore (and this time thing just amaze me each and every time)
I had a strange night last night. After I wrote to you, and went and lie down again – hoping to fall asleep. But nothing happened. But I am aware of a phase where I was not aware of my room, but I also was not asleep (do not know what to call that experience). All I was aware of was the word “lion shamanism”. Then at about 4:00am I got up and made myself something to drink and then it seemed I fell a bit asleep. But then I dreamt I was at my psychologist in Pretoria again, only her hair was still fair, but it was more reddish than blondish.
But what a strange day it was yesterday – I am feeling a lot lighter today than yesterday – I guess I felt like that fire that was on Lion’s Head next to Table Mountain. But I got through it and that is all that matters it seems – I don’t know?
Anyway, do not know when this letter is going to be ready to be sent to you…
LOVE
Renee
27/01/2006 14:46 or 14:10 or 141(0).
Ns. 27/01/2006 15:34 and 3 times 4 equal 12 and gives 312 again and again I ask you to please let me know, this time I am asking directly, if you and Marion are ok! Why does it appear all the time, the time and 312 that is linked to Marion and for that reason you?
Our Sun not Dying – proof that Humankind cannot Manifest. July 5, 2008
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This is Lor77
20/01/2006 09:41 and 9 + 4 + 1 = 14 which gives a 14 and 41
Dear Lor
I do not understand the following, but my friend Karina was talking about it yesterday and in a way I was confronted with it while I was in my first year of university as well. Karina was talking about cause and effect. You get a cause, then in the middle, the thing it is going to have the effect on and then the effect. I am wondering why are we viewing things this way? Isn’t this keeping us in the dual world? And even as I am writing this, I do not understand it. I do not and never could get my mind wrapped around the fact that if you view an object – which forces are exercised on that object? I could never see the forces that was suppose to be working on an object – though apparently because if you pick up a stone and you hold it in the air and not let it be in your hand anymore, it will be because of forces working on it that it falls to the ground . But all the other students were able to see these forces that worked in on that object that was needed for them to pass their physics course. For any force working on an object there are it seems a force from the opposite direction that are working at the same time? And things like gravity and who knows what else? You know what is strange, I feel again the confusing feeling I had when I did Physics at University and not being able to see what the others saw – the forces that are working on an object.
Anyway, I will speak again to you later.
LOVE
Renee
20/01/06 09:54 or 9:9. And the date all added up gives also 9 which gives 999.
20/01/2006 10:56 and the date added this time around adds up to 11 and the end minutes also to 11.
Dear Lore
Last night we had meditation at Carol again. The theme was Angels, but all I got was – after we had to climb a ladder, that I was in front of that place I dreamt of that was some kind of base, that beautiful place against the mountain. I think I have told you about that dream, I am not sure though. But anyway, here I was in front of this huge building which seems to be related to Olympus, and there was a bird that was flying ahead of me to take me in. This bird was yellowish with blue wings. But the weird thing was, that this bird was flying and flying to take me in, but we were getting no where except right where we were. Then later on I saw a woman inside a place – there were some pathway and next to the pathway on the left of the woman, was water. This woman was dressed in some purple gown thing which covered her head as well and only her face was visible. Then I realized but this woman and this place was inside that building against the mountain which seems to be related to Olympus in some or other way. But I do not know why, as this woman was wearing a mask over her eyes, but I believed this woman to be you. And this woman was carrying something in her hands in front of her.
11:41 Since after my shower this morning I saw myself also on that path in that place you were in last night in my meditation. The one I think is in the place against the mountain. Well, my head wanted me to listen to music now and it turned out to be the 4th CD from the top and the 16th song on that CD. Nesse Dorma is the name of the song and the artist is Jannie Moolman. And as I was listening to this we were only standing on that pathway next to the water – and it seems there are crocodiles in the water with no threat. And mostly I saw the place from outside, as it is in the sun against these huge mountains – as the one part is in front but there is another part against another mountain at the back as well. And as this song reached its peak, you started our procession to move – you, me the lions and the dogs. Where we are going to I do not know, I just know the procession has started. And you are in front with that type of ball of light in your hands in front of you. And as the song ended now, the time was 11:41 (I do not know if this is of importance, but the whole time I was listening to this song no 16, I was thinking my father might arrive anytime)
Well, I guess I write further later…
LOVE
Renee
20/01/2006 11:49 or an 11 and 13
20/01/2006 15:33 or 333
Dear Lore
I just landed in the most difficult position. With this Business Club thing I got a guy that want to go into Business Club on the highest level. But he will be going in as our no 2. So yesterday the guy who introduced me to Business Club went with me to see this guy as he just had a few questions still. Then later the afternoon the guy who went with me, phoned me and said he was going to upgrade this morning.
So this afternoon I thought to myself, but if we can get someone in before the guy we saw yesterday pays his money, we (me and my parents) are just going to make a fortune. As this guy we saw yesterday will then be our no 3 and you earn big money for that, especially if he is going in on the highest level.
But then it started bothering me that I cannot do it to the guy, who thought that the man who is coming on the highest level is going to be our (me and my parents’) no 2 and he will earn the big money. As he has now this morning upgraded to platinum and if I get someone to come in meantime on no 2, then he is going to be in a bad position financially because what he thought was going to come to him, will not. Then I thought – after I also spoke to my mother about this – rather leave it as it is. Let the guy who upgraded get the money.
Yes the guy he is going to get is going to earn him millions. But maybe his task is more important that he needs the money for. Now I just hope I did not do the wrong thing to give it to him (the one who upgraded) and that it was meant for us – as we are in financial trouble at the moment. So I hope I made the right decision to let the money go to Esteban.
And it is again this time of the day 15:55, so I am not feeling well – I do not know what is troubling me, it just feels as if something is troubling me. Everyday. And sometimes it is at its worse at about 17:00, but it starts at 15:30 up till about 19:00 or even later sometimes.
But I will speak to you later again.
LOVE
Renee
20/01/2006 15:57 or 312 or back, first, middle. (this is a clue that I received from Marion and her daughter when I was visiting in August 2003.
22/01/06 12:59 and if you look at the first time and the first of the date you get 2(2) and 1(2) and the same way if you look at rest of date, you get 1 and 6 or 7 and 14 or 5 and 7 + 5 = 12 or the 1(2) again.
Dear Lore
I am wondering about holiness. And I wonder if we are not missing something – like if we take wholeness, or then wholiness, what is missing is the “w”, but the pronunciation will more or less stay the same? And I told you that the “w” I view as “vv” and “v” is the 22nd letter of the English alphabet and if you put 2 of them next to each other it gives 22 22 or added, 44.
LOVE
Renee
22/01/2006 13:10 or 131 and I view 131 very close to 1 + 3 = 4 (22) = 3 + 1.
22/01/2006 13:22
Dear Lore
In the previous letters I told you about the Olympus thing – the “base” against the mountains and I also told you that a certain procession started. But yesterday the whole day, I was sort of still taken from time to time to that “procession”. But what is strange is that – like the bird I told you about that was outside that “base” flying and leading me to go inside, we are getting no where. We are moving, but we are staying at the same place. This is very strange. Anyway, I do not even understand about the mountain thing or Olympus – what is Olympus anyway? I just know that I have been in early years dreaming of going off to places to find something that had to do with a mountain. And I only realized now that the dream I had of that “base” was what I was searching for all my life in my dreams. And now it turns out to be only pillars that are in front of the rocks of the mountain but it makes, if you view it from where I saw it, an awesome place. But it seems it is what is going on inside – as it seemed that me and the bird were not getting anywhere, but suddenly in the meditation, I was with you, with what it seemed like, inside that mountain.
Anyway, I do not understand what all the above mean and if it even have a meaning at all?
You know what I was thinking about the other night? I was thinking that say for instance I was the sun, then I would not be thinking in terms of night and day. As we think night and day because the sun comes up and goes under again which gives us night and day. But the sun does not have that. So what is time for the sun? We have time because we measure it with the sun – but the sun does not have that. And now I am wondering - if we are growing older because of time, and the sun does not have time or an understanding of it like we do, will that mean the sun is not subject to time and not subject like we are to dying? That is if age is subject to time? But I remember that I read that the sun has got only a certain amount of million years to burn still before it will have no burning anymore – will be no sun anymore. But if we put it to age, how could we? Because for the sun there is no such thing as time, especially the way we measure days and years?
Now I am asking myself the question, as in a previous letter I wrote how everything – even the sun for instance, is going to die – that is according to what scientists are telling us as I said above as well. They tell us that a star has got a limited amount of “time” to burn itself out. But we are creating that “time” as I do not know anymore if the stars are subject to what we call time? And aren’t we then creating the reality of the stars being limited because we give it an x amount of years, to be a burning star. But are stars subject to “time”? Do they burn out because of the factor (for us) of time? I understand how the scientists come to that – especially if we take that it take a certain amount of light years for the light of a certain star to reach us, here on the planet Earth, but we use our way of measurement with what we believe to be science. We get to where we are because of our science – but do you remember how you told me there are millions of Grand theories? Maybe our science has evolved, but maybe our science we use is not the only one around? Because we are using our measurement standards and subject other stars to it – by for instance the use of our concept of time. Because if I put myself in the sun’s position, I would not even be able to tell day from night – as how would I know as I am the cause of day and night to others. Would I know dark from light, if I am the light? So can we really subject the stars to our little measurement of time, like day and night?
I also know that if we make a fire, with wood, it goes dead at some point – as it burns out. But what I do not understand, is how we can subject stars to our belief of time and say that a certain star died. Is it linked to our making of fire with wood? We are living in the dual world of night and day, of life and death – but are the rest of the Universe or Universes subject to that duality?
I know in Lor75+76 I wrote and asked if we are in a dying Universe, where even the stars are subject to death and birth. (And when I say dying Universe, I mean that the objects in the Universe are subject to birth and death – not that the Universe as a whole is dying, only that all in it are subject to that birth and death duality). Maybe it was just me running around in circles in that letter where I asked about the circular “thing” that the Universe turn out to be for us – and it seems were getting me no where.
Talking about circular things, I remember Nietzsche in some or other way found a way in circular way to solve certain philosophical questions. But that I have not enough knowledge about that to talk about it, but what does stand out about that man for me, was that he had this little story about a madman who ran out on the plain and said to the people, that God is dead and we killed Him. This story I just love, still up till today and has stuck with me. I always thought that with our understandings of God, we were close to this little story of Nietzsche.
Lor, please don’t take my marvelling about the birth and death of stars seriously, as I know nothing about that subject – in fact, I know nothing about science and leave it up to the scientists, as they know much more than I do. I failed physics at University and because I could not understand it, I did not even have it as a subject at school.
But I will speak again to you later…
LOVE
Renee
22/01/2006 14:09 or 14 again, as 14 were the minutes that the first of today’s letters started with and now is the end time for this letter as well.
22/01/2006 14:24 turning 25
Dear Lore
I was lying down now for a while and my head made me aware of the fact that my whole body feels “active” at the moment. After the previous letter I wrote. But then I thought, so what do I do with that now – the way my body is feeling at the moment? And my head showed me that: I can think, for one or being better understood, I can think 41…
And if you look at the end of the previous letter, then 41 is just the inverse of 14 and you know by now which I link the 14 41 combination with.
What I am wondering, is where and when am I going to find all the solutions to all these questions that have come up since I started writing to you in 2004 (and if you look at the beginning minutes of this letter, it is 24 turning 25).
Anyway…
LOVE
Renee
22/01/2006 14:30 and 14 on clock is 2 and 2 + 3 = 5 and so does 1 + 4 and 4 + 1.
22/01/2006 14:41 (and my legs were very restless and forced me now, together with my head, to get to the computer and start writing – and only after I viewed the time, did I realize why I felt so uncomfortable in order to get me to the computer.)
Dear Lore
I do not know why, but I am sure I have written about this to you before. But it is a subject that came up again while I was visiting my friend Len on Thursday. He also bought Bible Code 2 now for himself. But what was outstanding for me in that book was how the author wrote how he was looking for some obelisk that is according to the bible code “swallowed” in the area of Masada and also where the Dead Sea Scrolls were found. The author made trips there and were scanning the area with some scientific equipment to find that obelisk, but my question is just, can’t one view a cave as some mouth in a mountain and see it as “swallowing” some obelisk which could be the Dead Sea scrolls that were put in some kind of pots (obelisk). According to the author these obelisks are carrying the answer to the future for us apparently. I don’t know, as it just seemed to me logical that one can perceive a cave also as a mouth in the mountain? And this is the second (2) chapter in Bible Code 2 – and this gives us 2 2’s or 22.
LOVE
Renee
22/01/2006 14:51 and 5 (1 + 4) + 6 (5 + 1) = 11.
22/01/2006 15:49 or 3:13 or 313
Dear Lore
I am wondering what it is about this life, especially this time of the day, that seems to make life unbearable for me. What is it that I am missing, is it something I am missing, what is it?
I am sitting here and feeling miserable and seems I cannot find the cause
Renee
22/01/2006 15:57 or 3:12 or 312 again. This letter ends the same time as the one on
the last one on the 20th has ended. This gives that the end of the last on 20, is the same as the end of the last on 22.
How Silly and Ridiculous does it Become when it come to the Word: SIN July 5, 2008
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12/01/2006 12:53 I am wondering what the 53 is indicating as I am getting the combination a lot of times now – I know they add up to 8, but what the combination imply I do not know and if it even imply something I do not know either.
This is Lor75 and 7 + 5 = 12 and Lor76 (in one)
Dear Lore
I woke up this morning busy with a strange dream – or maybe not that strange. I was close to the sea, but in front of me a carnival was going on – the carnival of life it seems. And behind it the sea was making the most beautiful waves in the sunlight. And I was trying to take pictures of this – getting the carnival as well as the beautiful waves, in. And with carnival, they had built vehicles that carry themes. And at one stage I was watching one of these vehicles, which the theme was an elephant, but behind it the sea was doing something that scared me a bit – you know, the kind of scare I think one will have if that water were a tsunami type. But all the other waves I have witnessed and was beautiful was green and blue bright, with the sunlight on it, but they haven’t broken yet into the white like when waves brake, they look sort of whitish. But behind this carnival elephant built vehicle, there came a huge wave, that was already broken – but the white part that has formed was enormous and it scared me a bit. And I was thinking that we need to move to a higher place. But all the people were so busy with the carnival that the sea and the waves had no impact on them.
And I wonder if life is not really like a carnival – aren’t we making a carnival of it anyway
But the most important thing about the dream was that I was trying to capture the beauty of the waves and the carnival on my camera. But I do not think one can ever put the real beauty of the real thing onto a photograph. And although I was trying to take all these photos – of moments in time – I was not satisfied with them. But in the dream I never got to see the end result of these pictures that was taken. So I cannot really explain why I was not satisfied with the pictures I took. But I know the last scene I tried to capture was the vehicle with the elephant theme and behind it the tsunami type of wave behind it, on its way to it. And I do associate knowledge with elephants. So maybe in this carnival of a life we are living, something like a tsunami is going to hit our theme of knowledge?
I don’t know – I just know that the water was never brown or dirty. Even the one coming for the elephant theme vehicle was pure white.
Anyway, I just wanted to share this with you for now.
LOVE
Renee
12/01/2006 13:13 and when I see 13 I think of something Higher that is at work in this “carnival”.
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13/01/2006 20:12 turning 13
Dear Lore
There were something wrong with our Mnet now and my father called the company to fix it for us. He tried to explain it to them and said that a other way round 3 and a 0 is showing on the little screen. I looked at the screen and saw that it was actually an “E” and an “O” or 0. Now I am wondering if that is where the 5 and 3 combination is connected to. As “E” is the 5th letter of the English alphabet combined with what my father called another way round 3. But the guy on the other end could also have wondered – seeing my father called it an other way round 3 – if this is an “M” or if it could be a “W” as well. But “M” is the 13th letter of the English alphabet (coincidentally also today’s date and turning up in the time as well) and the “W” I view as a double “V” and “V” is the 22nd letter of the English alphabet.
So connected with this other way round 3, we get the following possibilities:
- “E” or 5
- “M” or 13 (4 and where 4 is linked to 2 + 2 or 22)
- “W” or double “V” or (22 x 2 = 44)
I do not know what this means and if it means anything at all.
LOVE
Renee
13/01/2006 20:25 and 2 + 2 or 22 and a 5 and it seems the above 3 connections are linked to 22 and a 5
15/01/2006 or 06/01/06 again and 08:14 and 2 + 6 = 8 but 15 – 1 = 14 and it seems my friend Karina thinks my sums on the (-) and the (-1) thing are important and I need to speak out – I don’t know…
Dear Lore
I had the strangest dream last night – it was actually a bit scary. There was this sheriff that the kids trusted to protect them. And then there were this guy who it seems a lot were looking for – including this sheriff, to protect the kids in some or other way. I do not know if this “guy” the people I was with were looking was some criminal, but it was sort of like it was some police people I was with. Then we were not at the scene where the sheriff was anymore and I looked through a window and through another window and I saw this “guy” everyone was looking for. But although I knew that I saw this “guy” through the two windows, it did not feel as if there were windows between us. And he looked at me and saw that I saw him. And he looked like a type of Native American but what was strange about him was that he had this magician type hat (black) on his head – well, you do not really get them in white. But this made some impression on me. And then the other people and myself were hiding – in order to find this “guy” and I knew he was coming in our direction and as he got to us, the others were hiding their faces and then this “guy” shot me with a gun in my neck/throat. And as I woke up, I still had this strange feeling in my neck/throat where I was shot. It was on my right side of my neck/throat where I got shot. And he said to me as he came to us before he shot me, that he is going to shoot me first. But in the end he did not shoot the others.
Then, just before I woke up, I was at a very high position and could see mountains and mountains on the earth. And I thought this strange thought that next time I would want to be able to fly across those mountains as those mountains are huge obstacles for humans to get over as humans are so small in relation to those mountains. But the mountains were beautiful.
Well, just wanted to share this strange dream with you – it seemed for a while the dreams were quiet, but the previous night I had also strange dreams and in that one eventually the kids had to stop playing and go to their homes because I found a leopard (panther) who was camouflaging itself – and the kids were not impressed that they had to stop playing. But a lot of them were so dirty – especially the one who I passed to move them in the direction of their homes.
Anyway…
LOVE
Renee
15/01/2006 08:29 and the time added gives a 19 which is linked to beginnings and ends.
15/01/2006 09:40
Dear Lore
I was just thinking of how the world either agree with some things or disagree about some things – and seeing the dual world, that is probably how it is suppose to be. And I thought to myself, but anything is possible – but then I started to wonder about that statement that anything is possible? Because the opposite of possibility is impossibility, and if anything is possible, then there would be no space for something to be impossible as everything (enclosed in anything) is already linked with being possible. If anything is possible, can impossibility have any existence at all? People believe that with God, everything is possible. But wouldn’t the inverse of this statement would then be, but nothing is impossible – which is saying that the only thing that is impossible is nothing. Nothing is the only impossibility – that is if everything is possible.
I don’t know, this is confusing…
LOVE
Renee
15/01/2006 09:46 or 09:10 or 91 now, the inverse of the end of the previous letter – as that letter ended on 19 and this one on 91.
16/01/2006 09:53 and I have wondered about this 53 since the beginning of Lor75 and even thought there was some sort of answer in one of the other letters in Lor75. But yesterday I heard on the TV accidentally that someone was multiplying 3 and 5 or 5 and 3 which gives 15. And what was the dream I had on the 15th?
Dear Lore
Yes, and yesterday was the 15th and it was Sunday and on the front page of the Sunday Times they had a small article about the Vatican that want to change the perspective the church had about Judas Iskariot all these years. Apparently they do not want to deal with him as a person of treason, but as one who only played out his role in God’s Plan.
As I read this I send my friend Len an sms and said to him I know what they are going to put up with should they take on this interpretation. In short it will come down to that Judas was only a puppet in the God’s Plan. If you widen this perception and all are merely “puppets” in God’s Plan, where do sins come in – how can we be sinning if we are “puppets” in God’s Plan? I am wondering what will happen to the church if this happen – if their interpretation leave them to one conclusion, and that is that what they are based on, namely sins, does not exist – this sounds if it could get into a catch 22 situation should the church decide to see Judas in a different light. And I wonder if they do not want to see him in a different light because they feel they are judging him and they do not want to do the judging thing anymore.
And all this also happened on the 15th. I think it is just, according to the Bible Jesus knew that Judas was going to do what he did. That shows that Jesus knew something in the future and then the question for me is, if it was something already in the future and Jesus knew upfront, how could Judas have been responsible for his actions if it was his fate?
And my friend Karina says that one is actually sinning if you make a choice what is against what your destiny is. This will put so much strain on people – I know as I have been there, it gets to a point where you do not know what you are suppose to do even every nano second. How can we know? I got to such point in beginning 2004 that I was lying in anguish on the bed not even knowing when to blink my eyes to just do what my destiny is to do! But that is the extreme it can reach if you think that it is up to yourself to comply to your destiny. And if I look at the Judas story, Jesus knew for sure that Judas was going to do what his fate was – how could Jesus have been so sure of that if it still was up to Judas to still decide if he was going to do it or not? If the possibility was still out there that Judas could have made a choice still – how could Jesus have made the claim he made that someone was going to give him away. How could Jesus have made the claim that his most truest follower was going to deny that he knows Jesus 3 times and that the chicken was going to make a noise about that. So how did the chicken know what he was suppose to be doing in God’s Plan? What if he did not make the noise like Jesus predicted, would he then have sinned? This sound a bit ridiculous to me.
Anyway, everybody are allowed probably to believe what they want – it is just, the things does not make sense to me. But at least it seems the Catholic Church is moving in a very new direction. If I take what the Afrikaans churches are up to – they are still way behind as they are all still deciding how to interpret certain events in life to know what is sins according to what God is all about in the Bible and what not. Or maybe there is not that much difference? As it seems they are all busy with interpreting what God want us to do? I guess the only thing different from the Vatican and the Afrikaans churches, is that I want to see who of them is first going to come to realize but they have a problem – the Word that is suppose to tell them all about God is only confusing them?
LOVE
Renee
16/01/2006 10:26 and today is the 16, the combination that is linked to you and Linda and then we are left with a 01 (in the date) and a 10 (in the time) and a 2 and a 6 in both the date and the time.
16/01/2006 10:54 or 19 the result of time
Dear Lore
I was just thinking now and wondering. My friend Karina also said that it is for humanity to evolve. But so much of what we do goes in circles. We have clocks and we say they go clockwise, but we have the concept what anti clockwise is. That is when the clock does not go in the direction it is suppose to be going. But we even see that the planet is going around (and around imply a circle) its own axis. What if we are getting to a polar flip and the earth stop and start going in the other direction? Not only our planet is going around its own axis, it is also in ecliptical way going around the sun and the sun in some circular way around in the milky way…and so it carries on.
But what is troubling me now is that in Afrikaans, if your reasoning are not getting you anywhere or to any conclusion, they will say you are like a “fitter” going around your own axis – so it is linked that there is no evolution if you are only going around in a circle all the time.
I just hope this is not applicable to the Universe – as it seems everything is going around something. Even if it is in an eclipse, it is still some form of circular movement.
I am wondering if we are really in an evolving Universe, or are we in a dying one? There are signs of new stars being born, but ours, our Sun, is dying – once a star is born, it starts the cycle to end up burnt out. Where is the evolution if all is caught in this cycle? And what else is a cycle than movement in a circular way? If we take on small scale and look at ourselves, what has humanity evolutionised into? Are we out of that cycle of beginning and end?
I don’t know, it is all just making me depressed and making the small thing about interpretation look ridiculously to keep ourselves busy with. And what does fate matter if we look at the microcosmos? AND this is if we can trust what the scientists are telling us that they pick up signals that new stars are born and that our sun will eventually burn out and that we are moving ecliptic round the sun and the sun in an ecliptic way in the milky way. Maybe that is why I saw that paper drifting off in space that once meant life. And I know that rebbe Nachman shows that God is seen as in a circle and making space for us, for creation, within God Self, within the circle. But I do not know how true this “conceptualisation” of God can be, as a circle seems limiting to me – and if I view eternity, there is a clash. An eternity within the boundaries of a circle? But the only thing at the moment that makes sense (even with the interpretation sillyness we are dealing with on the planet) is all is making no sense. I guess if we have sense we have to have something that makes no sense – just in this instance everything is linked to no sense and that the only thing that makes sense is nothing. And I remember a phrase about the Underlying Force of the universe that was said is the only one not to get caught up in the illusion. (That was still when I was looking up about the parrot and it is mentioned in a previous letter) And I was wondering what this illusion was all about. And my question is now, does an illusion make sense? We are in the no sense part, but nothing makes sense, or, the Underlying Force of the Universe do not get caught up in the illusion, or makes sense of everything that is not making sense to me at all. And that place I told you about in one of my previous letters, where I was in a place where “I” did not even exist, it was peaceful and there were nothing and there were not these endless questions about these clashing things, these things that made no sense. There, there were no bother with sense anymore.
There is no sense in this reality that make sense – and what do one do when you make something?
LOVE
Renee
16/01/2006 11:20 or 02:20
17/01/2006 09:34 and 3 times 4 equal 12, but today – not taking the year in account – is 17(0)1. The 1 and 7 combination both ways.
Dear Lore
I just thought to share this before I mail this letter to you. As I was writing the letter just before this one, yesterday, my father arrived home for no reason at all and he was irritating me because I was concentrating on something it seemed. Then he even went as far as to whistle and talk to the dogs that even irritated me more. And to put the cherry on the cake, he then tries to phone my mother, but for some or other reason he accidentally phones me…
But something that my father was here while I was writing that letter yesterday, has got something to do with it – because normally if something irritates me tremendously, it seems it needs my attention as that situation is trying to say something.
And I had these dreams again last night, or rather this morning as it was before I woke up. There was a blue lizard and some crocodiles coming to me at some stage in my dream. And then I walked beneath a tree – actually two trees eventually – and each time the tree consisted of spiders. And I read up in the “Animal Speak” book I have about these animals and it seems they all have something to do with the feminine energies and creativity. But I guess the true meaning will come in later if it is necessary at all to understand it better than just what I now mentioned.
Anyway, I was actually writing this letter primarily to tell you about the incident with my father yesterday – and Lore, there is a lot going on in this house at this time. A lot that I do not know what to make of…
LOVE
Renee
17/01/2006 09:44 and this complete the 1 and 7 combination, both ways, with the connection to the 44 as well in this end. And by now you know what the 1 and 7 and 44 is connected to…the Hebrew name of God meaning “I will be revealed at ever greater levels”.
Ns. You will see at the beginning of this letter it says this is Lor75 and Lor76. If you add 75 + 76 = 151 and this seems to be important the 1 and 5 combination as to the dream I had on the 15th that is shared with you in this Lor75+76. That must be a very important dream as never before did I my head want me to do this – add two Lore’s like this one was done. That was the dream about the man with the magician hat and that shot me in my right neck./throat, the one I saw through two windows – and although there were windows, there were nothing between those windows. Also is this “ns” not written with any number time frame – like my letters usually do. So this makes this letter also unusual. Why? I do not know the answer to that – though I would like to…
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